lol. three days in a row with the word 'happy' in the title. pardon my severe lack of vocab. but this morning at the training... i got an email from my ibn mentor... that was like enough to send me over the moon... he asked if i was interested to work at ibn. of cos i replied yes... and then he revealed that he's looking for lab officers... so I'm meeting him on Friday. omg omg please please give me the job. gosh I'm squealing in delight typing this right now. i think I'm even more happy then watching arashi shows... well on average that is, there were some times when they really cracked me up too :)
but yes. so my dinner tonight was canceled... postponed rather... i was initially planning to just come home and write applications... but half of me was thinking of going kinokuniya to buy some books... i tore and dug over some of my pocket money for it, but i think i spent way more $$$ than that today... in the end i meet up with my sis for lunch... and we spent a lot of $ eating lol. then i got two books at kino! there was a lot of arashi on the mags today... two or 3 aiba front pages, 1 nino, and loads of arashi on the front... well i guess its like this most of time though. arashi is really popular ne? but anyway i didn’t buy any... not cheap either... most are ard around 10+ bucks a piece. but what i did get... was this two!
Yup! platinum data!
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and Kagi no kakatta heya!
i was thinking of buying them last time, but the price i a bit prohibitive... not to mention the fact that while i can understand their variety pretty alright... reading... now that's a completely different thing. what inspired me to buy them was the fact that neenjaneenja is translating the entire platinum data over to english... and yes i enjoyed the 4 chapters so far... so yup i was thinking, ok, i've got an english version to refer to while reading the japanese one, if i want to read ANY japanese novels at all this has to be the best time to start.
saw nazodi and mikeneko holmes too... but... no money lah haha... its like... $16.90 for platinum data and $17.60 for kagi heya. Expensive ok! ya i've started work but since i've not sold anything, i wont get paid for my efforts. instead, i've spent so much on transport and food its like... my dad actually gave me $100 last week, the MOST he's ever given me thus far per week, i used to only get like $60-70 in uni. and to my absolute horror i spent pretty much all of it. Abour $30 alone went to transport - just trains and buses... gosh the cost of living...
yeah yeah, if i sell stuff I'd earn $$$, but i really really love research work so much so much more. ok i shant talk about it already. i just pray that he'll give me to job on Friday. i really hope he does. i keep asking myself what if i don't get the job, what if he changes his mind after all... but then it shdnt be right? i'm pretty sure i left them with a good impression. I'm just worried if the higher ups will interview me or something... but if my boss likes me a lot it shdnt be a problem right? i know they had nothing but praises for me left time, genuine praise. i don't think there were that many kids who went back to ibn so many times... i went there in what... jc1 to jc2, and after i finished jc. but yeah i know they liked me a lot. well otherwise he wouldn’t have asked if i was interested right? ah i should stop guessing ne? what will be will be. I'm really praying he'll give me the job though. i want it so bad. i know so much about the place, maybe too much. i saw so many researchers come and go, even a whole group. so tough so tough in there. hence the reason i was scared, didn’t want to go back. but i guess doing this job my boss actually woke me up, gave me to courage. the courage to contact my old mentors, my professors etc. like my boss says 'you'ew so young, if you don't work hard this one two years, later on you are going to regret it' and yes i think i would. i lost by not even trying. not even daring to try. so hopefully i can fix that mistake now, hopefully i'll be given a chance on Friday. if i don't get the chance on Friday, then i'll have to go back to writing all my applications and try harder. i asked myself what i really want and i know what my answer is. i tried to convince myself that it didn’t matter, but now that i've finally faced my own feelings, it was so wrong. I really really like science and its not a façade that i say each time to others just so that they'll think I'm... idk? smart? or whatever. i mean it. what kind of a person am i to love science so much and then just give it up w/o even trying properly. Pathetic really. That's what i was, am, whatever. I don't want to be that person anymore. Yeah I'm pathetic for doing this insurance job for 2 weeks and then quiting, but i feel even more pathetic for giving up science. something that all my friends know i love. when i told my sister i got the interview on Friday she was like 'finally' finally a proper interview for a science job. yeah finally. Its like the ET who finally found home. and if i get the job at IBN, in the old group that i've called home more than once, it'll really be a case of ET coming home. Even if pretty much everyone save for 3 ppl have changed, it'll still feel like a homecoming to me. Yeah i guess I'm really lucky too, my boss and my mentor are still there. Boss as in, the team leader, the PI (Principal investigator). Mentor as in my... direct mentor, the lab officer who's now a senior lab officer... who taught me like pretty much all the things i learnt from IBN. i was really really close to him. yeah all the fun times we had together. I hope i'll be able to have it again soon. Gosh it'll really be a cause for celebration if Friday goes well. right now i don't see any reason to celebrate me getting a job. it was really for my parents, for my dad that i took this job. but of course, if i didn’t take this job, i might never have taken much action to get a job, I'd never have been so desperate, i don't know when I'd have waited till to contact my old mentors/boss. so yeah, as much as i regret coming into this job, i think i did learn a lot as well.
this afternoon i got a call from the office, telling me that my agent pass is ready. LOL. oh wells. let's hope that things goes well so that i can return the pass soon. heh. i don't think it shd be a problem... my results and all, i don't think my boss will give a shit. just like the prof i visited yest. science ppl don't care abt small stuff like appearances and shit. the students there were all the t-shirt and jeans... and the prof's table was one huge mess that totally put my already very messy table to shame. i really wonder how it'll go on Friday. i don't know what to say and stuff. not good at saying things... don't know what to say to him either. i do know last time when i was there for my SRP... i was looking for a mentor to take me in, and i was supposed to ask if he minded me not taking it as a H3 subject and what not... i tried to explain to him but he didn’t care about the explanation at all. was totally fine with it. so please please, just take me in. especially after i've worked so hard there in the past and proven myself to be useful - my experimental data was used for their research paper like twice. it was the exact same graphs that i had in my research report that made it to their research paper and that made me so, so proud. the only sucky and most regrettable thing was that although i carried out the experiment mostly on my own, the graph itself ended up getting generated by my mentor - because excel sucks, it doesn’t give nice enough graphs no matter how hard i tried. there's just some limitations and stuff in the software that prevented me from getting the exact graph i wanted. so in the end we gave up on excel and my mentor used this really user unfriendly software to plot the graphs. since i didn’t have the software tho i could only watch as he worked.
haiz. two more days of training to go through till the interview. got a dreadful tele night to do tmr. idk how I'm going to do that tele night. 2 hours of calling... who to call? seriously... i don't want to call ppl to make appointments if I'm going to quit like the following day. like what's the point seriously? arghs. i want to just hide on some corner and pretend to call. bleah. heck no, i don't even feel like turning up. but i guess i have to. just really hope that he will give me the job. he's a japanese guy, my boss... its been like... 5 years ago since i last work there but i still think of him as my boss. haha. really humourous and nice guy... he's a great boss, my mentor kept telling me. gah enough of this. my sis was showing me howl's moving castle OST just now, and in turn i introduced her to ni no kuni and copied the rom over for her and told her with emulator to use. man it's been a while since i last played that game. maybe i shd play it again tonight since I'm in such a good mood. or shd i attempt to read my new story books? :P
oh the photos have finally been uploaded...
and this
edit: oh wait i got the rainbow filling entry to finish... oh wells...
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