Enough is enough

[coolohoh]

This is it.

I'm going crazy.

From the accumulation of everything. Too much. Too much.

I can't take it anymore. Try and try as I might, I can't rebuild my life.

Try and try as I might, I'm stuck in this never ending loop of self fulfilling prophecies.

It's killing me.

I went on a buying spree. Bought a $118 a jays five. For iOS. Wanted the white, but it seems like they only have the black in sg. Oh wells. So black it is. Sure I've been eyeing a pair of jays with remote control for damn long now. But it was cos of frustrations at work that made me buy it in the end.

Then I bought an iMac too. Placed the order online. And of course it's the retina display model. Upgraded to 16gb ram. Which of course, I've been wanting to get for damn long too.

And I'm going to find unsup next week. With an extra colleague. But she's busy cos her dad came over to sg to find her, and her dad is overly active and tiring her out... So well. I'm just gonna book the tickets today. And find a hotel too... Only problem is that the hotel rooms are usually for two. So I hope she'll be ok with whatever cheap hotel I pick. Cos fuck. I don't want to wait anymore. I'm sick of this shit. No, not of my ex-colleague. Just sick of myself and my pathetic life.

I just want to find somewhere to hide...

Comments

[renchan27.livejournal.com]

Nothing I tell you will make you feel better but I'm pretty sure she'll be happy with whatever hotel you choose if you need to leav take a leave... :) *hugs?*

[renchan27.livejournal.com]

Oh and you can hide under my bed if you want. I'll go there with you ^^'

[coolohoh]

thanks dear! I'm feeling much better now... At least, for now. My friend hasn't even applied for her visa yet, I have no idea if she can make it in time... I think she's conflicted too because her boyfriend is throwing a bbq part on Saturday, and she didn't know it's his birthday till it's too late... Either way, my hotel and flights are booked and with unsup + another Arashi fan I met online who offered to bring me around, I think I'm all set yay!

[renchan27.livejournal.com]

Ah yeah, that would be a conflicting problem :S But like you said you're seemingly all set, so enjoy and tell her you'll do it again with her sometime ;) enjoy the trip ^_^ and relax!