Crazy, crazy, crazy.
Jan. 8th, 2016 12:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
coolohohIt's been a crazy one hell of a week.
And wait, it's not even Friday yet.
My colleague's experimental set up in the microscope room caught fire....
And then another huge news (for me) took me completely by surprise yesterday.
Even though I've... anticipated that this would happen. It just... took me by complete surprise. And not exactly in a good way.
I guess... It means that it's time to turn the gears. Get moving. To what would hopefully be a new stage in my life. It's time to get my PhD.
BUT. There's a lot of work to be done, thanks to my absolutely screwed up undergrad GPA. Most unis would just outright throw my application in the trash because of my lousy grades... The uni that I graduated from included.
And my work experience... I don't know how much it'll help. I hope it's enough... Because that's all I've got. Of course... for US universities they look at the GRE too. So from now... studying for the GRE is high up on my To Do list. I think I'd like to squeeze in time for JLPT (preferably N1) too... Because... Well. It might help. That's something else to talk about on my CV. And yes, I'm desperate. Very desperate.
Why the sudden desperation?
Let's just say that...
A bomb (not literally!) dropped on me and I got a wake up call.
I'll post in time what this is all about I promise... But I won't say so now.
Sigh.
It's been a tough week.
Of course, it's probably nothing like what others are feeling now but...
This is big for me, and could prove to be the turning point in my short little life. I hope that it will be... Well I'll have to work hard and make it be.
Years later yesterday would still be a big event for me... And hopefully I'll look upon yesterday as the start to something great. As a start to a series of great things...
Ok. I don't know if I'm making a mountain out of a molehill... But yeah... This is the most thinking I've done about my future in any 36 hours period so far in my short life.
I cried.
After all that uncertainty and worry... And I guess the lack of sleep too...
I let myself just cry it out. And feel much better now. Which is good because I have to be.
There's still a long road ahead of me...
And even for this current little path that I'm on... There's still a distance to go, and I have to run it well. I'd be busier than ever for sure and I'd have to work harder than ever. There'll be no rest for me I'm sure... I need accept the fact, and move on. Well. We'll move on together I guess.... I guess you can put it that way... Sort of.
Like a tag team.
Partners...
The shadow will always support and follow behind you. Till the very end.
I still have one last run on this path to make. Well, actually more than 1 run. But I'd consider this my last. And most important. Anything after that may well be... meaningless.
One last run ahead. I'll run with you all the way. Will you run with me?
One last dance. One last waltz.
One like firework, but we'll light the night sky.
*sigh*
On a separate note...
So as not to end the post on such a sad/mysterious note...
I got my kindle today! Finally. After having my friend help me buy it during the black Friday sales last year... And after all the delays cos she's busy with work, and had to look for a shipper that doesn't charge ridiculous fees...
Not that I'm blaming her for the delays in anyway! She's busy, we are all, and I'm in no hurry. Still it's something that I'm really excited for... Hence the anticipation. It was actually slated to arrive last night, but somehow the delivery was rescheduled to today.
After all this happenings... I'm gonna load up some books on my kindle voyage, maybe slap on the cover and see if I like it... And then head to bed to read. Ah... Gotta convert all my Epubs to Mobi too.
That's my kindle.
And another random pic I made sometime back to brighten up your day.
Till next time folks!
PS: You might be able to guess what the news is, or maybe you can't tell... Either way just don't comment/guess about what the news might actually be... Because well... I'm not supposed to talk about it right now.
Suggestions, tips, and advice on PhD applications (in the field of biology, I'm open to going anywhere in the world as long as the place is a good fit, I can get in, and I can afford it), studying for the GRE are most welcomed.
Edit: On that GRE note. I *think* I should be ok for math... as long as I get some practice, and stay alert during the test. The English part on the other hand... :( Just looking at the 'common' vocabs with some free flashcards app and... I don't know 80-90% of the words. Lol. How pathetic. But yeah, all along I've known that my vocabulary is weak. Like really weak. In fact I think it's the education system/the way English is taught here that resulted in this situation. The bulk of my regular countrymen have vocabulary libraries worst than me...
And wait, it's not even Friday yet.
My colleague's experimental set up in the microscope room caught fire....
And then another huge news (for me) took me completely by surprise yesterday.
Even though I've... anticipated that this would happen. It just... took me by complete surprise. And not exactly in a good way.
I guess... It means that it's time to turn the gears. Get moving. To what would hopefully be a new stage in my life. It's time to get my PhD.
BUT. There's a lot of work to be done, thanks to my absolutely screwed up undergrad GPA. Most unis would just outright throw my application in the trash because of my lousy grades... The uni that I graduated from included.
And my work experience... I don't know how much it'll help. I hope it's enough... Because that's all I've got. Of course... for US universities they look at the GRE too. So from now... studying for the GRE is high up on my To Do list. I think I'd like to squeeze in time for JLPT (preferably N1) too... Because... Well. It might help. That's something else to talk about on my CV. And yes, I'm desperate. Very desperate.
Why the sudden desperation?
Let's just say that...
A bomb (not literally!) dropped on me and I got a wake up call.
I'll post in time what this is all about I promise... But I won't say so now.
Sigh.
It's been a tough week.
Of course, it's probably nothing like what others are feeling now but...
This is big for me, and could prove to be the turning point in my short little life. I hope that it will be... Well I'll have to work hard and make it be.
Years later yesterday would still be a big event for me... And hopefully I'll look upon yesterday as the start to something great. As a start to a series of great things...
Ok. I don't know if I'm making a mountain out of a molehill... But yeah... This is the most thinking I've done about my future in any 36 hours period so far in my short life.
I cried.
After all that uncertainty and worry... And I guess the lack of sleep too...
I let myself just cry it out. And feel much better now. Which is good because I have to be.
There's still a long road ahead of me...
And even for this current little path that I'm on... There's still a distance to go, and I have to run it well. I'd be busier than ever for sure and I'd have to work harder than ever. There'll be no rest for me I'm sure... I need accept the fact, and move on. Well. We'll move on together I guess.... I guess you can put it that way... Sort of.
Like a tag team.
Partners...
The shadow will always support and follow behind you. Till the very end.
I still have one last run on this path to make. Well, actually more than 1 run. But I'd consider this my last. And most important. Anything after that may well be... meaningless.
One last run ahead. I'll run with you all the way. Will you run with me?
One last dance. One last waltz.
One like firework, but we'll light the night sky.
*sigh*
On a separate note...
So as not to end the post on such a sad/mysterious note...
I got my kindle today! Finally. After having my friend help me buy it during the black Friday sales last year... And after all the delays cos she's busy with work, and had to look for a shipper that doesn't charge ridiculous fees...
Not that I'm blaming her for the delays in anyway! She's busy, we are all, and I'm in no hurry. Still it's something that I'm really excited for... Hence the anticipation. It was actually slated to arrive last night, but somehow the delivery was rescheduled to today.
After all this happenings... I'm gonna load up some books on my kindle voyage, maybe slap on the cover and see if I like it... And then head to bed to read. Ah... Gotta convert all my Epubs to Mobi too.
That's my kindle.
And another random pic I made sometime back to brighten up your day.
Till next time folks!
PS: You might be able to guess what the news is, or maybe you can't tell... Either way just don't comment/guess about what the news might actually be... Because well... I'm not supposed to talk about it right now.
Suggestions, tips, and advice on PhD applications (in the field of biology, I'm open to going anywhere in the world as long as the place is a good fit, I can get in, and I can afford it), studying for the GRE are most welcomed.
Edit: On that GRE note. I *think* I should be ok for math... as long as I get some practice, and stay alert during the test. The English part on the other hand... :( Just looking at the 'common' vocabs with some free flashcards app and... I don't know 80-90% of the words. Lol. How pathetic. But yeah, all along I've known that my vocabulary is weak. Like really weak. In fact I think it's the education system/the way English is taught here that resulted in this situation. The bulk of my regular countrymen have vocabulary libraries worst than me...
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Date: 2016-01-07 11:20 pm (UTC)I haven't got a kindle yet however I have one Kindle app on my IPad mini. And the picture is just perfect XD
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Date: 2016-01-11 03:52 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2016-01-12 12:21 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2016-01-08 02:36 am (UTC)nope. no idea what this is all about.
i cant run with you. but ill follow you whenever you go. *stalker.remember?*Â haha
im not in the place to talk much. but i hope youll find away to achieve anything you want. im still struggling and crying but dont want give up yet. ranting is always no 1 to me. hehe.
phd is awesome go for it!Â
and you know. i always thought singapore people have a good english skill. its not?
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Date: 2016-01-11 03:53 pm (UTC)Depends on who you're talking to... People may have a decent level of English, but generally vocabulary is severely lacking. My English isn't all that strong IMO, but I'm considered really good when compared to others... so... o.o
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Date: 2016-01-08 04:08 am (UTC)Hey, if you need help with your English, just let me know. I have a degree in the silly language, and everything :)
I am running with you too! *more squishies*
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Date: 2016-01-11 03:57 pm (UTC)Any tips on learning vocabulary? I actually have that Barron's book of the 1100 words... That my junior college teacher made us buy. But I never did more than the first few pages hahaha. And that book has been sitting on my shelf ever since. If only I was more hardworking then.... :P
I find that flashcards with just the word definition are pretty useless for me, I don't remember the definition. Even if I do, I don't know the word usage. On the other hand it gets really time consuming if I have to google every single new word in the list, and pretty much all of them are new words. Seems like that's the better way though...
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Date: 2016-01-16 11:40 pm (UTC)Honestly, I think you are on the right track, using them in sentences really can help you put them in context!