Lottery ticket
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coolohoh"You have struck the first prize." Read the ticket.
"What's the first prize then?" You ask.
"Prize unknown. Subject to future changes." The machine read out.
That's what I feel now. I seriously just hit the jackpot.
It's incredible.
Right before I leave for home. The PI sent it. The email asking me and the other RF to do the grant proposal, and we'll be the driving force for the project. Well, we'll pretty much be the no. 1 and no. 2 hires in the project. For me, at this stage in life, what more could I ask for? The project could go well, or it could flop. Or it could just end up being normal. But heck. A project is a project. A chance is a chance. Instead of being thrown into another project to be a small clog in the wheel, I'll get to be a big clog this time. part of the motor even. How much better can it get? I just have to pull a little magic and make things work.
Arghs this has totally taken over my mind now. Arashi what? Even the NHK documentary and VSA Hawaii SP doesn't feel so exciting now. I guess that's what adrenaline? can do to you. I guess plus the fact that I'm getting pretty darn tired now. After relaxing and watching the latest episode of running man with my parents. And helping my dad for a while with the walkaton registration. Sigh. Next week once my leave gets approved (probably have to bug the HR again) I need to help with air tickets booking. Holiday in dec. I should be happy. But I really hate planning and booking for such things. Maybe I'm just lazy. And I guess the tiredness is really draining all my excitement away. After I just spent over an hour recording the events of the week in my diary. Now it seems like that adrenaline has faded and I'm about to crash. Ahhh...
I have no idea if the project will turn out big. I think in terms of funding it'll be pretty hard to beat that huge monster that was my previous project. But that's fine. Right now this project is just a 2 men thing... but really it all depends on the proposals, the grants and funding we can get... with funding we can always hire more people. No money no talk. Simple as that eh? Really a lot will lie with how well the idea works out. How well we make the idea work out. How well we sell the idea. I ain't the best writer around, but when it comes to science, and proposals, I think I have enough training since secondary school to write pretty darn good stuff. A thesis squeezed out at the very last minute got me an A-. I was really hoping for at least an A... but looking at how none of the students in my old company last time even got an A, the best of them only got an A-... I guess I didn't do too bad. Those were top students in NUS too. Some were from top JCs too... or were among the top in their respective JCs... Really was hoping for way better though. And no one even turned up for my poster presentation!!! Sheesh! All that effort I put to make a really beautiful poster. With a stunning, HD 3D model of the proteins. Sheesh. Meh. Looking at the rest of the general populace in Sg... I think I have it way too easy. Let's see if the idea works out though...
"What's the first prize then?" You ask.
"Prize unknown. Subject to future changes." The machine read out.
That's what I feel now. I seriously just hit the jackpot.
It's incredible.
Right before I leave for home. The PI sent it. The email asking me and the other RF to do the grant proposal, and we'll be the driving force for the project. Well, we'll pretty much be the no. 1 and no. 2 hires in the project. For me, at this stage in life, what more could I ask for? The project could go well, or it could flop. Or it could just end up being normal. But heck. A project is a project. A chance is a chance. Instead of being thrown into another project to be a small clog in the wheel, I'll get to be a big clog this time. part of the motor even. How much better can it get? I just have to pull a little magic and make things work.
Arghs this has totally taken over my mind now. Arashi what? Even the NHK documentary and VSA Hawaii SP doesn't feel so exciting now. I guess that's what adrenaline? can do to you. I guess plus the fact that I'm getting pretty darn tired now. After relaxing and watching the latest episode of running man with my parents. And helping my dad for a while with the walkaton registration. Sigh. Next week once my leave gets approved (probably have to bug the HR again) I need to help with air tickets booking. Holiday in dec. I should be happy. But I really hate planning and booking for such things. Maybe I'm just lazy. And I guess the tiredness is really draining all my excitement away. After I just spent over an hour recording the events of the week in my diary. Now it seems like that adrenaline has faded and I'm about to crash. Ahhh...
I have no idea if the project will turn out big. I think in terms of funding it'll be pretty hard to beat that huge monster that was my previous project. But that's fine. Right now this project is just a 2 men thing... but really it all depends on the proposals, the grants and funding we can get... with funding we can always hire more people. No money no talk. Simple as that eh? Really a lot will lie with how well the idea works out. How well we make the idea work out. How well we sell the idea. I ain't the best writer around, but when it comes to science, and proposals, I think I have enough training since secondary school to write pretty darn good stuff. A thesis squeezed out at the very last minute got me an A-. I was really hoping for at least an A... but looking at how none of the students in my old company last time even got an A, the best of them only got an A-... I guess I didn't do too bad. Those were top students in NUS too. Some were from top JCs too... or were among the top in their respective JCs... Really was hoping for way better though. And no one even turned up for my poster presentation!!! Sheesh! All that effort I put to make a really beautiful poster. With a stunning, HD 3D model of the proteins. Sheesh. Meh. Looking at the rest of the general populace in Sg... I think I have it way too easy. Let's see if the idea works out though...
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