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Hi there! Welcome to my personal blog.

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Ok. So you want to know a little about me? Here goes.

First up, I'm really long winded, so consider yourself adequately warned.

( About Coolohoh )

Alright. Cya around!

Ok, so I've finally created my dreamwidth account. I don't really know what to post here though... since I'm still planning to use my livejournal as my main. This makes it the... nth blog I have already... As a result I really don't know how often I'll be updating this journal since well... I really can't update so many journals at once.

My fanfics are already in my community and on my personal LJ so... crossposting them here too seems a little too much. Not to mention troublesome. I think dreamwidth is more friendly towards erm... posting of chaptered fics but well... my one and only chaptered fic is making no progress lol. I still want to continue writing it but... well chaptered fics are just hard for me ok. That's why I have so many drabbles and one shots. We'll see.

I wonder how the Arashi community here is like. I do like the interactions I've had on LJ so fan, that's why it's saddened me so much that people are all mass migrating to twitter and tumblr. I use those too... but not much. I'm *trying* to make more of an effort to use those, but really apart from sharing content like GIFs and photosets... I feel that there's nothing much I can do on tumblr. Not much interaction between fans.... just reblogging stuff... And twitter is even worst for me. The feed moves like a rocket and everything is so fleeting. I don't even know who to tag if I have some Arashi related stuff to share... and it's not like people will purposely come to my twitter page to read Arashi stuff, since that's NOT the only thing I use it for. (Actually, mostly just reposting from instagram.) So there it is, you know all the social media sites I use for fandom stuff already. Yes, Arashi, if you've not already caught my drift.

I also have a website called Nihongo Manabu on the Japanese language, and everything about Japan/JPOP/whatever. I try to post the vocabs that I come across on Arashi shows, or when I'm doing translations for whatever over there... so do check it out if you're a Japanese learner like I am.

Well, that's all for today I guess!

Random List of Things About Myself

Hi there!

First up, some resources:
My fanfic masterpost is here, and my TV review masterpost is here. I also have a list of some of my favourite fanfics here, though the list is not very updated.

Also, check out my crafts shop here.

Add me if:
You want to read my random updates.
You want to read random translations of random Arashi related stuff.
You are trying to learn Japanese, and would like to read the random Japanese vocabularies that I post.

I won't add back unless we've chatted before or something.

Anyway... Here's the random list of things about myself, last updated on 29th Jan 2015. Anchors away!

I'm a crazy/weird person who just so happens to be a girl (I dress and think more like a boy most of the time so yeah) and an Arashi fan.

I'm from Singapore and I'm Chinese so... yeah I speak mandarin and it helps me understand some kanji.

I use twitter - feel free to follow darkillertg. I have tumblr, though I don't use it much. It's mainly just crossposts from my instagram. I just started using weibo. Add me if you want. I mostly post photos (same ones as instagram!), and say randm stuff in Chinese/Japanese. So far I've not posted anything there in English though.

I go by the alias darkiller online most of the time... otherwise its coolohoh or chemanic. Chemanic is the name of my very 1st character in maplestory, and the nickname chem stuck with me ever since (doesn’t help that I named all the rest of the characters ChemXXX).

I love playing games and doing what seems to be rather useless/pointless stuff. Games I play/played include MapleStory (MapleSEA, and KMS), dragon saga, pokemon etc. I also used to play on kongregate - userid coolohoh - add me if you play there too. Currently not playing on Maple and Kongregate due to work and Arashi. Whatever time during weekends/after work when I'm not KO-ed on my bed, I'm busy trying to catch up on watching Arashi shows, or translate stuff etc.

Apart from Arashi... there's no other singer/band that I'm such an avid fan of. I know the names of some singers and I know (maybe even love) probably a few of their songs but that's it. I most likely don't even know how they look like so... you can't count that as being a fan right? I do like a lot of other songs besides arashi, its just that... yeah i dont follow any band/singer.

I listen to (English) POP songs, JPOP (mainly Arashi), Chinese songs, Classical music... and a few other extras. Recently I'm loving songs by ONE OK ROCK and SEKAI NO OWARI.

I'm a science person. Logical, rational... Finished my biological sciences degree now and I'm working as a researcher.. I depend on logical reasoning, and even my instincts... but I hardly 'feel' anything. You can say that in real life I'm not an easily moved/touched person. I would even say that I'm (a bit? a lot?) cold hearted at times.

Related to my Chemanic statement earlier: Chemistry was my 1st love. It was the science that I loved the most in Secondary school... but later on in Junior College somehow I felt that my math was too horrid to survive me through a Uni chem course, so I picked my 2nd love - biology. Math was my no. 1 weakness... really weird for a science person no? I enjoy reading about all the sciences, but that doesn’t mean I'm good in all of them - I don't mind reading about physics stuff though I don't understand everything of quantum mechanics... (and well not TOO deeply into each of the subjects either, I'd just get lost and fall asleep) those long and complicated equations in particular... I wont even ATTEMPT to figure them out. I still like chemistry a lot though - organic chemistry in particular. Not really good at it but I just enjoy the subject. So basically I enjoy a mix of chem and bio...

I have a bad memory. Or rather, a memory that works differently. I can remember details of things that took place, things that interest me... place even... but nothing of what is needed in exams. I can remember the details of all the extra stuff (i.e. not tested in exams) that my bio teacher said in class (years ago), but I can't remember drugs and their effects to save my ass during my pharamco exam. I can remember places that I've been to, I can remember details of conversations/outings with my friends which everyone else at the outing have forgotten... I can remember what comes next in a movie... but memorize stuff for an exam? You kidding me? Hello I can't even remember my times table properly... (I remember a few, and then add etc to get what I want... or something. Now I've done the multiplications enough times for the numbers to be familiar in my head, but sometimes I'll still need to confirm. E.g.: 6 x 7 =? I remember 6 x 6 = 36 cos 3, 6, 9 are my favorite numbers... than 36 + 6 = 42... tada! answer!)

I'm weird. Some times I wonder if i have split personalities or something. I can adapt myself to 'feel' and think different in different circumstances. I also think differently from what other's normally think...

(In view of the above two points) Arashi taught me how to feel (or at least, express my feelings). The showed me how to laugh again. Along my journey growing up I've had a fair share of getting bullied... and added to the fact that I'm kind of a loner and how I think different in the 1st place, I tossed aside this thing called 'feeling' long ago. I've always suppressed my emotions. I don't know how much has changed now, but at least when I'm watching Arashi I enjoy myself and feel alive.

It seems to me that I'm a slow thinker. I'd consider and debate issues in my head for quite some time. Ok, slow thinker isn't the right phrase to use... it should be that I take longer to respond to things. Like if you ask me about some problem that I've never encountered before, I'll think and consider things carefully before giving an answer.

I can't spell! Thank goodness for spell check...

I procrastinate. A LOT. *looks at my pile of half written fanfics*

I'm a quiet person. Online though, I type a lot... so it's almost as if I've become a totally different person.

I'm very long winded - I think you found this out already.

Hmm if you've got this far, thank you for sticking with me. In short I: like science, like to play games, and like Arashi.

I have two other blogs as well... this one is dedicated to gaming stuff (though now I'm gaming lesser and lesser), and this one is for everything else. Except Arashi. That's what this LJ is mostly for. My random rumblings about Arashi and (occasionally) some other random stuff. EDIT: Currently I'm using LJ and pretty much LJ only. The other two blogs are mostly dead though I've vowed to myself that I ought to revive them. Everything goes onto my LJ now...

I'd love to add friends on LJ, especially Arashi friends. Leave a comment here or send me a PM and I'd love to add you back! Just something, anything will do. E.g. How did you actually come across my LJ or why you want to add me, just curious ya know? Since I'm just a random kid trying to... Ok. I don't even know what I'm trying to do. Oh wait... yes. I'm just trying to spread the Arashi love. I took so much from the community - translations, scans, photos, DVD rips, CD rips, show uploads... I just wish to do my little part to spread the Arashi love, hence the reason for my TV reviews and fanfics. Just yesterday I've finally made up my mind to help the subbing community, and hopefully from now on I'll do transcripts for subs on a regular basis.

Currently I'm am working. I've got my degree in biological sciences and am now doing research at an institute in my uni. So far so good, the people and nice and friendly, I'm doing science and learning stuff, work hours are pretty slack... I get to muck around with expensive, really expensive equipment like the TEM (my sis was like 'OMG this is the stuff you only see in textbooks')... Its been six months working here now and I'm happy. I messed up my uni grades pretty badly, so hopefully with some job experience under my belt I'll be able to enroll in a PhD program in the future... yup. That's my goal right now. Learn as much as possible at work, maybe get some kind of recognition like a paper or something if possible, and get my PhD. You need a PhD to move up the science ladder, and I WANT a PhD. Yeah, if only I'd realized that a little sooner and stopped fooling around during my undergrad so I can get slightly better grades and be able to enroll in a PhD program directly but... oh wells. I'll just have to take the longer route. I'm sure I'll get there someday :)

I have also started doing radio broadcasts on mixlr. Please join me during my live broadcasts if the timings suit you (I'm mainly broadcasting on Mondays, 10 pm to 1am JST), otherwise you can listen to a recording of my broadcasts on my mixlr showreel. It'll be great if you can join us live though! You can chat with other Arashi fans, request for songs, and join in our random talk :). You can follow me on mixlr, so you'll get an email notification when I start my broadcasts! I've met many lovely Arashi fans on the broadcast, so I'm glad I started doing it!

Cleared the JLPT N4 and N3. Missed the sign up deadline for last December's. My friend was encouraging me to take the N1 right away... dunnoe... *shrugs*

How did I get into all these Arashi fandom related activities?
I started off writing fanfics because... I'm a science person. I would say that I'm good at doing scientific writing. But scientific writing is scientific writing. Sentences are kept short, and concise. No bombastic words or flowery language. And you get to the point. You don't beat around the bush. And I'm good at that. I guess you can probably still see a lot of the influence in my fiction as well. You can say that it's part of my writing style already? So yeah, I started writing fics because I don't want to just be a good scientific writer. I'd like to write other stuff too. Like fiction. And so I did. I can't say that I'm the best writer, but I'm starting to 'loosen' my style in fiction writing now. No you know... sticking to having short sentences and only 1 idea per sentence sort of thing as you see in science. And I do love it when I have random, fun ideas to write about. At times like these is when writing is most enjoyable.

As for TV reviews, I started out when I saw the arashi_bangumi advert on arashi_on. I got an app called Marsedit and it handles all the screenshot uploading so I thought, hey, why not give it a try? And it just went on from there. And as I did reviews, more and more people asked me (some even in a very accusing tone :( ) to do subs. And I have always refused... eventually though, I liked the idea of doing subs more and more, and it helps that I do actually have a few hours free in the evenings (if I don't waste it playing on my phone) that I could do some transcripts with. It also helps that I've been doing so many reviews and I actually do transcribe quite a lot of their talk already. And it just goes on, like a natural progression kind of thing. First reviews. Then subs. Then translations...

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: home sweet home

Waiting for nazodi epi 08 to get uploaded on tuduo/youku. WITH subs XD. My pathetic level of japanese wont allow me to understand much of the more complex japanese they use in dramas. Complex/varied... etc... during varieties the phrases that i learn are most or less those that they keep using a lot of. I did buy a textbook when i went to visit my friend in China last year, but till now i've not even opened it to take a peak :S

Recently i've been watching all the arashi shows as soon as they get posted. Raw and w/o subs. Sucks that there are still quite a lot of parts that i don't understand... but its like... i don't have the patience to wait for the subs to be out. I want (to watch) my arashi NOW. Wondering what ii should watch next… hmm… maybe freeter? Watched bambino halfway but couldn’t bear to continue watching that retarded, proud bambino. Well i guess that means that MatsuJun did a fantastic job in his acting. I have absolutely nothing against him, its just that i don't like his role/the story.

Been reading tons of fanfics lately. There are so many great writers out there… even though some of them have less than perfect English/grammar (heck, its not like mine is good anyway), it doesn’t matter to me as long as 1) its not so bad that i don't understand anything (haven seen any fanfic like this anyway) 2) the story is good. There are so many touching stories… i cried my eyes out last night reading fanfics… Just so happened that all those i read last night were the touching/sad kind.

Yeah, i'm a bit of a cry baby when it comes to such things. Its weird, i don't normally cry. I don't normally show much emotions… esp to strangers. I have long told myself that i should do shy/embarrassing stuff like cry in public. I control my emotions. Show nothing. At least that's what i try. Maybe its cos i didn’t exactly have a very good childhood in primary school. I was the odd one out, I didn’t have any friends… I couldn’t get along with people… maybe it was cos i was just too shy and awkward… but i spent most of my time alone. Like during recess i'd always eat alone. Even now, i'm alone most of the time, esp this semester where most of my modules are different from my tag-along friend in uni. We aren't all that close, but she's like… the only person i have to eat with and all. So we stuck together. Cos she doesn’t quite have anyone else and neither do i. So it was like this. I had longed trained myself not to be too emotional about things and such, to suppress my emotions. And it didn’t help that i didn’t like girly stuffs. Or rather, i still don't. I don't like dressing up… the last time i've put on make up was in sec 4 when we had farewell alma mater - like a graduation dinner basically. I didn’t go to the one in JC cos i didn’t want to be bored, and didn’t want to spend so much $$$ on clothes that i'd only wear ONCE for the dinner and never more. Wells its not like i even wore a dress or anything. I wore black pants and a black shirt. The sec 4 farewell dinner… it was quite sad actually, cos i don't know many ppl so i was all alone. Like almost everyone else from my table had gone off, looking for their friends sitting else where. I was close to anyone sitting at m table… In the end i gathered enough courage to visit my malay friends who were sitting right at the other end of the ballroom (cos they were seated in the halal tables). Think i went over twice or smthing… But gosh i was bored otherwise.

I couldn’t understand it when those friends of mine spend so much money and time on Cds, concert tickets, goods etc of their idols. Here in singapore its mostly (or was) taiwan artists that my classmates were going crazy about. Handsome? cute? I couldn’t understand any of that. The guys looked so not cute and normal to me. Handsome my foot… don't get how they would save up like 60 or 80bucks or even more to visit their idols concerts behind their parent's backs… and than a couple of months later they'd be totally over that band. Moved on to someone else i guess? Than i'd hear my classmates talking act how the band has arm… disbanded. All so short-lived. All so temporary. There was a while that Jpop was in the rage when i was in sec ssh, and i had a senior who loved jpop. I asked her why people liked music when they couldn’t even understand it… she said something like the tune was nice or something… couldn’t remember… but i know better now.

My sister was saying that she can't stand fads. Esp fads with bands/singers etc… its like if you like someone, you like them and you've got to mean it. Such things won't change over time. And they shouldn’t if you meant it when you said you liked them. I think i agree with what she says… now that i've met arashi. My sis started getting into all things Japanese when she started watching conan and other anime/manga in primary school… my sec school classmates were really into anime and manga too, but i didn’t join in. Later on tho, my sis did 'force' me to listen to a few japanese songs - anime opening and endings, and i found that i did like them. Shortly after that was when she started liking arashi, and eventually i asked her to pass me a few arashi songs to listen to. I was a total fail at listening to japanese songs at the beginning. Don't have a music background and… i never knew i was so pathetic at recognizing tunes and stuff till i listened to songs in a language i didn’t know. All the songs sounded the same to me, like i'd confuse song openings with each other etc… but i realized that I did LIKE the songs. Well not all of them, but at least some of them. I liked the tune. I liked the image I could have with the tunes… because i don't know what the heck they were saying, i could interpret the song any way i want. From the tune and the tone of the voices alone. I guess the same can be said of things like classical music… but normally i'm not in the mood to listen to classics. I want something more fast paced and.. exciting… well its really hard for me to describe it. Also… most classics are kinda soft - i can't really hear them through my earphones when the environments really noisy (i always listen to music on my way to and from school). Whatever, i guess its just an excuse and i don't really like to admit that i don't quite like classical music. I quite enjoy listening to them once in a while, but that about it. I think my sister is much more into classics than i am. Me? I fell asleep when i went to (classical) concerts. Embarrassing but true. So that was when i started to listen to Japanese songs. Later on, I got more and more arashi songs from my sis… and i just listened to them without much thought. Most of the time i don't pay much attention to the music. Partly because i was distracted by other matters going on in my mind (i daydream a lot)… partly because its quite noisy on the trains (and i don't really like the noise canceling, in the end kind of earphones)… At that point in time i didn’t know much about arashi. Just that there are 5 ppl in it, and there's one who draws really well and one news caster guy who went to uni. Yeah, that's all. Than one day when i was on the train with my sis and listening to songs… she asked me if i could differentiate the voices of the boys. Eh? It never dawned upon me that different parts was sang by different ppl. I simple wasn’t paying attention at all when i was listening… or it just never occurred to me that it was sang by different individuals… heck. Why would i care then? I didn’t even know the names of the 5 members of arashi then. (Its quite a miracle that i can even remember there are 5 ppl in arashi). So we listened to the songs together and she told me who's who… which didn’t really clear anything with me (you can't expect a noob like me to learn all their voices like just one song can you?) but at least it alerted me to the fact that… well… there are 5 ppl in arashi with supposedly unique voices (says my sis). Than we had gone to Taiwan on holiday, and we visited a cd shop with of cos… arashi CDs and DVDs. My sis got a couple of arashi DVDs… like their 5x10 concert and PV compilation special… During that trip i saw Ohno's cute, innocent face on the magazine cover, and decided that i like that guy (well it was only after i decided that i learnt that guy's called Ohno, never knew i could let my emotions sway myself like this). After that i figured that since we paid all that $$$ of the disks already, plus i had nothing to do since it was holidays… i might as well take the disks and watch it. It was around that time when i asked my sister to google me pics of the boys and tell me who's who. Yes…. i still do not know their faces than. How pathetic… that was like… June last year when we went to Taiwan… The 1st thing i watched was the PV compilation special. Totally cannot recognize them from their debut PV. They looked so different even though my sis insist that none of them changed except of Ohno and his hairstyle. I guess its cos i barely knew them than… totally couldn’t recognize them at all. Then i watched their 5x10 concert… It was superb…. Loved the pretty shiny outfits they came flying out in… It was the 1st convert i ever watched… well almost. Watched rihanna's concert on DVD before, cos we saw it on sale in china and that's like one of the few artist i recognized (it was cheap, my dad kept asking us if we want to buy anything… so i got that). I skipped through quite a lot of songs though, since i don't know much of her songs… so that doesn’t really count right?

So yeah... one thing lead to another... i started off by watching D no arashi, and i still remember the 1st arashi drama i watched was The Quiz Show 2 cos we have the dvd at home... than i watched shukudai-kun... and than a lot more of their shows and dramas... and now I'm following each of their shows and dramas every week. Now i don't even wait for the subs anymore... too impatient to wait any longer.

My dream? i want to watch an arashi concert. Live of cos. It'll probably be the 1st concert (pop concert) i'll ever attend... no actually, i want my 1st concert to be arashi... someday... someday...

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