I'm alive

It's over and I feel like I'm alive again.

What's over?

The mad rush and the (self induced) stress and tension.

And probably my productive period of time at my current workplace as well.

There are still experiments to finish up but... Think I'm gonna slack for a while. There's some new experiments to be started on but really... I have no idea what's things going to be like. I'll ask unsup how important that unstarted experiment is. If it's high on the priority list, then I'll do it. If not, I'll wait and see and I strongly feel that nothing is going to happen if I don't do anything about it so...

Yeah. We'll see.

For now I need a break. I should start writing letter right away... Probably. But no I really need a break.

I just want to hide somewhere and read. And write. And watch Arashi.

In other news.

I signed up for JLPT. At last. Decided that... Since I'm going to kill myself, might as well be thorough about it and take N1... So yup. N1 it is. I'm really, really going to kill myself. Lol. At least... For now I think I'm a little, tiny bit more motivated to study than previously.

So yeah. I'll start catching up on Arashi shows again. I'll try to anyway.

So many things on my To Do List. Things that I paused because I just can't take it anymore. Couldn't keep up with the lab and the stress. Stress... Not from unsup. But the whole situation - my next move and so on. A few things have been settled now so... That takes the stress off quite a bit. Like a new RF is here. And she's not another of those helpless people who can't even use a pipette properly (ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a little) so that's good I guess. Only that my Chinese language skills do not extent to specialised scientific/bio terms so we might have some trouble in communication. God dammit. My English speaking skills will go down the drain again. I should have lunch more often with my other non-Chinese speaking colleagues huh. No more being anti-social and having lunch alone while reading on the Kindle...

Oh yes. The To Do List.

Nihongo Manabu.

I stopped for a whole month because I was just too tired. But then I had to pay for it. The site dropped right out of the Google ranks... Sigh. Have to work hard to build it out again...

Then there's all the other blogs too. My gaming blog. And my crafts blog. Looking at my pathetic attempts to draw.... Yes, I'm definitely better at '3D' stuff, like... Eraser carving for instance, than drawing. I'm good with my hands... Except when I'm holding a writing instrument. (My horrid handwriting comes to mind.) Yeah. Somehow...

And there's twitter, weibo, and instagram. I'll try and get active on those again too. Well maybe not twitter. But I'll try and post some random short sentences in Chinese or Japanese in weibo again. Just so that I'll have a wee bit of practice typing in those languages. Practising han yu pin yin for my mandarin in particular. Even though all I use are those few elementary words. But hey, still better than nothing!

I scored an R programming book from unsup. So that'll be where my immediate focus in terms of studying goes. Well, at work anyway. For now I don't feel like installing R or R studio whatever on dad's lappy. Also considering to just get my own damned new lappy already... It doesn't feel nice using a loan computer. I don't really want to install too much stuff but... Yeah... Already I've used up more than half of my dad's HD space. Like.... There was over 100 GB free when I started using this? Close to 200 maybe. Now there's only 48 GB free. LOL! This is bad... Lol. And I didn't even transfer things like my iTunes library over! And... What I really want to do is make another partition for Windows... Yeah. And dad needs his lappy back soon anyway. I should just go ahead and buy my own lappy already. Heck. I wanted to get it month ago but he was the one who said "Oh, just use mine? Mine is still working what...?"

Yeah. Time to return the lappy huh.

Of cos... My GRE practises will make a comeback in earnest. And I'll try to keep up with my JLPT studying. Cos yeah. I paid 70 bucks for the test already.

Speaking of 'puters.

On well. Unsup is moving away. And trying to sell off almost every single piece of furniture and whatever article she owns. And... Her hubby is a gamer and computer geek. And... They have a freaking razor chroma keyboard they are trying to sell. That freaking keyboard that I've been eyeing for what? More than a year now. Dammit. I don't actually need a keyboard since I'm using a lappy... Well unless I choose to buy a desktop instead of a lappy - sis will happily take the desky if I'm successful in going overseas. But well... Back to the keyboard. Recently I've been trying to draw on the walcom tablet. So this larger than A4 sized tablet is now between me and my lappy. And I can't rest my arms properly on the table because I keep pressing the buttons on the tablet. And even now as I'm typing, my arms are starting to ache. And I do what to explore more of the digital drawing/art option... Since I've already started now. Might as well kick off my plans to draw science/lab/bio related comic strips right? So yes. Keyboard! And a freaking razer flashing pretty rainbow colors. They are selling a mouse too though I don't care so much about the mouse. But the keyboard!

I think I'll just go ahead and get it already. Heck. Illogical, expensive, and I don't actually need such a good gaming keyboard but... Heck. I'm going to keep admiring this keyboard in the store anyway so...

Bad thing is that it's loud. Mechanical keys with loud clicks... Not too good if I wake up in the middle of the night and start typing furiously huh. If mum or dad wakes up to use the loo... I'll get busted cos of the keyboard. Lol.

Sis was like. Why do you need a rainbow keyboard? The mac one lights up already! But well...

Lol.

The difference between gamers and non-gamers. Or hardware lovers. Since. I'm only a half gamer. Heck. I'd totally be a gamer if I don't get motion sickness. I'd really really love to try acclimatising myself to first person type of games. So that you know, I can actually play. Yeah. Just like... Need more time lol.

Time.

Never enough.

Like all the arty stuff I want to do too. And all the programming that I want to learn.

I ordered a 3Dsimo on kickstarter. It's a 3D doodler and more... They are getting towards the last stages of production and I can't wait to get mine and start playing with it. Really. It's gonna be fun I bet.

Too many things to do... Too many games to play.

But for now... I should go get to the laundry. Hahaha.