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10 years.
It's been 10 years.
To all the people who say I'm good. That's because it's been 10, long, years.
Not that it took me that long though.
I believe that I was always good.
Just once and I'd remember. Just once and I'd learn. Where the triton-X is. How to do a procedure.
Well, most, almost all of the time.
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13 years since I first picked up a micropipette, I've since picked up many more... But is it really for the things that I want to do? (Then again, what do I really want to do?)
10 years since I first stepped into a lab. Not a school lab, but a proper research lab for internship… I've since stepped into many more labs, but not the labs I really want to step into. (Then again, where do I really want to go?)
9 years since I first did cell culture in the BSC... Since then, I've used it many more times, but not to grow the things I want to grow. (Well... How would you know if you've never tried?)
8 years since that first paper mention... And still nothing more than little mentions. (And just two, how pathetic.)
10 years in something else and you might be a considered veteran… But in this world, I am still naught but a little fledgling.
It's funny how I probably have more lab experience than many people up there, somewhere, further ahead than me. All that years and yet I've gotten nowhere.
Roles and titles may have changed, but in the end, I'm still following behind someone else back. Different names, same thing.
Still the same. (Still doing 'useless' stuff, like writing this thing?)
Then again.
Maybe not.
I'm bigger now. This place is too small. Or maybe I'm just the same as I was, and this place has shrunk. Probably the latter. Or maybe, just maybe, a mix of both.
Too small, too suffocating.
I don't like small places.
I want to go somewhere big, and be small again.
You can't get bigger in small places. (You get stuck. And end up weird. Like star or heart shaped cucumbers or something.)
The cheese is moving. So it's time for me to look for new cheese.
At least... Now I do know what flavour of cheese I like. Maybe not the exact manufacturer, but at least I know the type. (Actually, I know what cheese I DON'T like more than what cheese I like. But still, that counts for something right?)
It's time to move, and be prepared to move more than once. (I'm not really making any sense, am I?)
Perhaps this time, we've really reached the end of the beginning. The end that I thought I was seeking two years ago, but now I know better. Than, I simply wasn't ready.
Let's hope this beginning will end differently. I need something different.
But hey, things are already different.
Hopefully the next 10 years will be better.
It's a long journey but I'll find it. I have to find it. The next cheese.
Here's cheers to another long journey. (I need to sprint for the whole year through. Gosh. Let's hope I don't get muscle cramps or something...)
Ok. Time to go back to actually writing something useful.
It's been 10 years.
To all the people who say I'm good. That's because it's been 10, long, years.
Not that it took me that long though.
I believe that I was always good.
Just once and I'd remember. Just once and I'd learn. Where the triton-X is. How to do a procedure.
Well, most, almost all of the time.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
13 years since I first picked up a micropipette, I've since picked up many more... But is it really for the things that I want to do? (Then again, what do I really want to do?)
10 years since I first stepped into a lab. Not a school lab, but a proper research lab for internship… I've since stepped into many more labs, but not the labs I really want to step into. (Then again, where do I really want to go?)
9 years since I first did cell culture in the BSC... Since then, I've used it many more times, but not to grow the things I want to grow. (Well... How would you know if you've never tried?)
8 years since that first paper mention... And still nothing more than little mentions. (And just two, how pathetic.)
10 years in something else and you might be a considered veteran… But in this world, I am still naught but a little fledgling.
It's funny how I probably have more lab experience than many people up there, somewhere, further ahead than me. All that years and yet I've gotten nowhere.
Roles and titles may have changed, but in the end, I'm still following behind someone else back. Different names, same thing.
Still the same. (Still doing 'useless' stuff, like writing this thing?)
Then again.
Maybe not.
I'm bigger now. This place is too small. Or maybe I'm just the same as I was, and this place has shrunk. Probably the latter. Or maybe, just maybe, a mix of both.
Too small, too suffocating.
I don't like small places.
I want to go somewhere big, and be small again.
You can't get bigger in small places. (You get stuck. And end up weird. Like star or heart shaped cucumbers or something.)
The cheese is moving. So it's time for me to look for new cheese.
At least... Now I do know what flavour of cheese I like. Maybe not the exact manufacturer, but at least I know the type. (Actually, I know what cheese I DON'T like more than what cheese I like. But still, that counts for something right?)
It's time to move, and be prepared to move more than once. (I'm not really making any sense, am I?)
Perhaps this time, we've really reached the end of the beginning. The end that I thought I was seeking two years ago, but now I know better. Than, I simply wasn't ready.
Let's hope this beginning will end differently. I need something different.
But hey, things are already different.
Hopefully the next 10 years will be better.
It's a long journey but I'll find it. I have to find it. The next cheese.
Here's cheers to another long journey. (I need to sprint for the whole year through. Gosh. Let's hope I don't get muscle cramps or something...)
Ok. Time to go back to actually writing something useful.
