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Restless...
Sep. 4th, 2014 06:36 pmFeeling bored and restless right now. Was done with work ages ago but... mum didn't cook so we are heading out for dinner, and dad's coming to pick me up only at 6:30 so I still have another 15 minutes to waste. Hence this totally random filler post to fill up my time.
Wasn't in the mood to do subs on Monday and Tuesday after Nep League sapped up all of my strength. And last night... wrote a fic but didn't manage to finish it before I sleep... so it's still not posted yet... and today in lunch too. My random mafias were throwing random ideas about, and I picked up one and started writing... only got till 600+ words before I had to get back to the lab. But nope, I'm not really in a mood to continue writing now (though I did add in another 40 or so words). Shall wait for these to finish before I bulk advertise them to arashirabu or something. Together with that drabble that I wrote erm... yesterday? During lunch time.
Joined my friend for lunch at KFC the other day. My 'best friend' in uni. Like we were always together for lectures, tutorials and stuff, even for our final year project... but we never really hit off with each other I guess. At least for me. We were friends but that was that. I couldn't really relate to her much and it just felt that our relationship throughout those four years were pretty superficial. Superficial in the sense that I would never go to her for personal advice etc, we never had any heart to heart talks... not the fake kind of superficial. I think she has matured more now though? During lunch it felt like we had a rather meaningful conversation, that wasn't so superficial anymore. Maybe it's cos she finally got a lab related job - as a lab executive in our old school in the uni. So we actually discussed a little lab related stuff. It's not a research position though... lab execs are like, the lowest rank in the lab, and esp so for her, she's not going to be attached to any particular research group, but rather she'll just be running samples and manning the MALDI and LCMS machines. And doing stuff like ordering the gas for the machines etc... basically no chance of doing any 'research' at all.
Well not to gloat though... but I wonder too if my job is really that much better than hers. I'll be doing a lot of routine testing too, and many of which is pretty much what the lab exec in my group did too. How much better is my job then? Idk. I just hope I can get some kind of paper, some kind of recognition, and squeeze my butt into a PhD program doing something that I'll like. Something that I'll be able to work my ass off for what... 4 years? It's the 9th month since I started work here already. Time flies! Soon I'll be hitting my first year here. I'm not a newbie here anymore... I'm reaching my first year already! But its so nice and comfortable here that I kind of understand why my old mentor in IBN never went to get his PhD. He's comfortable working there and he didn't need a PhD program. He's not a very erm... ambitious person? How should I put it? He's content with his life yeah. Met him last year and he's still pretty much the same old.
But meh... I used to tease him, about how he kept pushing back going for a PhD. I have to be careful not to end up like him. Right now I'm kinda like where he was when I first met him. Though he had started working a bit longer when we first met. But yeah... I think he was what... 26? Or something? When we first met. I'll be 25 this year, come 25 of Sept. Not much different from where he was. The mentor that I've looked up to. Now I have to prove myself and overtake him.
Thought provoking matters aside, and about my dad is about to arrive already... I'm going out with my sis to watch the Kenshin movie tomorrow night! 9pm show. I think it's the last/one of the last airings already... 楽しいみね! Really looking forward to the movie tons! And of cos we'll be eating out tmr XD Another lovely dinner + movie date. Hohoho! And one more to come with Kenshin part 2! XD *Eggcited*
Wasn't in the mood to do subs on Monday and Tuesday after Nep League sapped up all of my strength. And last night... wrote a fic but didn't manage to finish it before I sleep... so it's still not posted yet... and today in lunch too. My random mafias were throwing random ideas about, and I picked up one and started writing... only got till 600+ words before I had to get back to the lab. But nope, I'm not really in a mood to continue writing now (though I did add in another 40 or so words). Shall wait for these to finish before I bulk advertise them to arashirabu or something. Together with that drabble that I wrote erm... yesterday? During lunch time.
Joined my friend for lunch at KFC the other day. My 'best friend' in uni. Like we were always together for lectures, tutorials and stuff, even for our final year project... but we never really hit off with each other I guess. At least for me. We were friends but that was that. I couldn't really relate to her much and it just felt that our relationship throughout those four years were pretty superficial. Superficial in the sense that I would never go to her for personal advice etc, we never had any heart to heart talks... not the fake kind of superficial. I think she has matured more now though? During lunch it felt like we had a rather meaningful conversation, that wasn't so superficial anymore. Maybe it's cos she finally got a lab related job - as a lab executive in our old school in the uni. So we actually discussed a little lab related stuff. It's not a research position though... lab execs are like, the lowest rank in the lab, and esp so for her, she's not going to be attached to any particular research group, but rather she'll just be running samples and manning the MALDI and LCMS machines. And doing stuff like ordering the gas for the machines etc... basically no chance of doing any 'research' at all.
Well not to gloat though... but I wonder too if my job is really that much better than hers. I'll be doing a lot of routine testing too, and many of which is pretty much what the lab exec in my group did too. How much better is my job then? Idk. I just hope I can get some kind of paper, some kind of recognition, and squeeze my butt into a PhD program doing something that I'll like. Something that I'll be able to work my ass off for what... 4 years? It's the 9th month since I started work here already. Time flies! Soon I'll be hitting my first year here. I'm not a newbie here anymore... I'm reaching my first year already! But its so nice and comfortable here that I kind of understand why my old mentor in IBN never went to get his PhD. He's comfortable working there and he didn't need a PhD program. He's not a very erm... ambitious person? How should I put it? He's content with his life yeah. Met him last year and he's still pretty much the same old.
But meh... I used to tease him, about how he kept pushing back going for a PhD. I have to be careful not to end up like him. Right now I'm kinda like where he was when I first met him. Though he had started working a bit longer when we first met. But yeah... I think he was what... 26? Or something? When we first met. I'll be 25 this year, come 25 of Sept. Not much different from where he was. The mentor that I've looked up to. Now I have to prove myself and overtake him.
Thought provoking matters aside, and about my dad is about to arrive already... I'm going out with my sis to watch the Kenshin movie tomorrow night! 9pm show. I think it's the last/one of the last airings already... 楽しいみね! Really looking forward to the movie tons! And of cos we'll be eating out tmr XD Another lovely dinner + movie date. Hohoho! And one more to come with Kenshin part 2! XD *Eggcited*
