Waiting for nazodi epi 08 to get uploaded on tuduo/youku. WITH subs XD. My pathetic level of japanese wont allow me to understand much of the more complex japanese they use in dramas. Complex/varied... etc... during varieties the phrases that i learn are most or less those that they keep using a lot of. I did buy a textbook when i went to visit my friend in China last year, but till now i've not even opened it to take a peak :S
Recently i've been watching all the arashi shows as soon as they get posted. Raw and w/o subs. Sucks that there are still quite a lot of parts that i don't understand... but its like... i don't have the patience to wait for the subs to be out. I want (to watch) my arashi NOW. Wondering what ii should watch next… hmm… maybe freeter? Watched bambino halfway but couldn’t bear to continue watching that retarded, proud bambino. Well i guess that means that MatsuJun did a fantastic job in his acting. I have absolutely nothing against him, its just that i don't like his role/the story.
Been reading tons of fanfics lately. There are so many great writers out there… even though some of them have less than perfect English/grammar (heck, its not like mine is good anyway), it doesn’t matter to me as long as 1) its not so bad that i don't understand anything (haven seen any fanfic like this anyway) 2) the story is good. There are so many touching stories… i cried my eyes out last night reading fanfics… Just so happened that all those i read last night were the touching/sad kind.
Yeah, i'm a bit of a cry baby when it comes to such things. Its weird, i don't normally cry. I don't normally show much emotions… esp to strangers. I have long told myself that i should do shy/embarrassing stuff like cry in public. I control my emotions. Show nothing. At least that's what i try. Maybe its cos i didn’t exactly have a very good childhood in primary school. I was the odd one out, I didn’t have any friends… I couldn’t get along with people… maybe it was cos i was just too shy and awkward… but i spent most of my time alone. Like during recess i'd always eat alone. Even now, i'm alone most of the time, esp this semester where most of my modules are different from my tag-along friend in uni. We aren't all that close, but she's like… the only person i have to eat with and all. So we stuck together. Cos she doesn’t quite have anyone else and neither do i. So it was like this. I had longed trained myself not to be too emotional about things and such, to suppress my emotions. And it didn’t help that i didn’t like girly stuffs. Or rather, i still don't. I don't like dressing up… the last time i've put on make up was in sec 4 when we had farewell alma mater - like a graduation dinner basically. I didn’t go to the one in JC cos i didn’t want to be bored, and didn’t want to spend so much $$$ on clothes that i'd only wear ONCE for the dinner and never more. Wells its not like i even wore a dress or anything. I wore black pants and a black shirt. The sec 4 farewell dinner… it was quite sad actually, cos i don't know many ppl so i was all alone. Like almost everyone else from my table had gone off, looking for their friends sitting else where. I was close to anyone sitting at m table… In the end i gathered enough courage to visit my malay friends who were sitting right at the other end of the ballroom (cos they were seated in the halal tables). Think i went over twice or smthing… But gosh i was bored otherwise.
I couldn’t understand it when those friends of mine spend so much money and time on Cds, concert tickets, goods etc of their idols. Here in singapore its mostly (or was) taiwan artists that my classmates were going crazy about. Handsome? cute? I couldn’t understand any of that. The guys looked so not cute and normal to me. Handsome my foot… don't get how they would save up like 60 or 80bucks or even more to visit their idols concerts behind their parent's backs… and than a couple of months later they'd be totally over that band. Moved on to someone else i guess? Than i'd hear my classmates talking act how the band has arm… disbanded. All so short-lived. All so temporary. There was a while that Jpop was in the rage when i was in sec ssh, and i had a senior who loved jpop. I asked her why people liked music when they couldn’t even understand it… she said something like the tune was nice or something… couldn’t remember… but i know better now.
My sister was saying that she can't stand fads. Esp fads with bands/singers etc… its like if you like someone, you like them and you've got to mean it. Such things won't change over time. And they shouldn’t if you meant it when you said you liked them. I think i agree with what she says… now that i've met arashi. My sis started getting into all things Japanese when she started watching conan and other anime/manga in primary school… my sec school classmates were really into anime and manga too, but i didn’t join in. Later on tho, my sis did 'force' me to listen to a few japanese songs - anime opening and endings, and i found that i did like them. Shortly after that was when she started liking arashi, and eventually i asked her to pass me a few arashi songs to listen to. I was a total fail at listening to japanese songs at the beginning. Don't have a music background and… i never knew i was so pathetic at recognizing tunes and stuff till i listened to songs in a language i didn’t know. All the songs sounded the same to me, like i'd confuse song openings with each other etc… but i realized that I did LIKE the songs. Well not all of them, but at least some of them. I liked the tune. I liked the image I could have with the tunes… because i don't know what the heck they were saying, i could interpret the song any way i want. From the tune and the tone of the voices alone. I guess the same can be said of things like classical music… but normally i'm not in the mood to listen to classics. I want something more fast paced and.. exciting… well its really hard for me to describe it. Also… most classics are kinda soft - i can't really hear them through my earphones when the environments really noisy (i always listen to music on my way to and from school). Whatever, i guess its just an excuse and i don't really like to admit that i don't quite like classical music. I quite enjoy listening to them once in a while, but that about it. I think my sister is much more into classics than i am. Me? I fell asleep when i went to (classical) concerts. Embarrassing but true. So that was when i started to listen to Japanese songs. Later on, I got more and more arashi songs from my sis… and i just listened to them without much thought. Most of the time i don't pay much attention to the music. Partly because i was distracted by other matters going on in my mind (i daydream a lot)… partly because its quite noisy on the trains (and i don't really like the noise canceling, in the end kind of earphones)… At that point in time i didn’t know much about arashi. Just that there are 5 ppl in it, and there's one who draws really well and one news caster guy who went to uni. Yeah, that's all. Than one day when i was on the train with my sis and listening to songs… she asked me if i could differentiate the voices of the boys. Eh? It never dawned upon me that different parts was sang by different ppl. I simple wasn’t paying attention at all when i was listening… or it just never occurred to me that it was sang by different individuals… heck. Why would i care then? I didn’t even know the names of the 5 members of arashi then. (Its quite a miracle that i can even remember there are 5 ppl in arashi). So we listened to the songs together and she told me who's who… which didn’t really clear anything with me (you can't expect a noob like me to learn all their voices like just one song can you?) but at least it alerted me to the fact that… well… there are 5 ppl in arashi with supposedly unique voices (says my sis). Than we had gone to Taiwan on holiday, and we visited a cd shop with of cos… arashi CDs and DVDs. My sis got a couple of arashi DVDs… like their 5x10 concert and PV compilation special… During that trip i saw Ohno's cute, innocent face on the magazine cover, and decided that i like that guy (well it was only after i decided that i learnt that guy's called Ohno, never knew i could let my emotions sway myself like this). After that i figured that since we paid all that $$$ of the disks already, plus i had nothing to do since it was holidays… i might as well take the disks and watch it. It was around that time when i asked my sister to google me pics of the boys and tell me who's who. Yes…. i still do not know their faces than. How pathetic… that was like… June last year when we went to Taiwan… The 1st thing i watched was the PV compilation special. Totally cannot recognize them from their debut PV. They looked so different even though my sis insist that none of them changed except of Ohno and his hairstyle. I guess its cos i barely knew them than… totally couldn’t recognize them at all. Then i watched their 5x10 concert… It was superb…. Loved the pretty shiny outfits they came flying out in… It was the 1st convert i ever watched… well almost. Watched rihanna's concert on DVD before, cos we saw it on sale in china and that's like one of the few artist i recognized (it was cheap, my dad kept asking us if we want to buy anything… so i got that). I skipped through quite a lot of songs though, since i don't know much of her songs… so that doesn’t really count right?
So yeah... one thing lead to another... i started off by watching D no arashi, and i still remember the 1st arashi drama i watched was The Quiz Show 2 cos we have the dvd at home... than i watched shukudai-kun... and than a lot more of their shows and dramas... and now I'm following each of their shows and dramas every week. Now i don't even wait for the subs anymore... too impatient to wait any longer.
My dream? i want to watch an arashi concert. Live of cos. It'll probably be the 1st concert (pop concert) i'll ever attend... no actually, i want my 1st concert to be arashi... someday... someday...
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