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Sigh.

It's been a long week...

JLPT tmr and I have no doubt about how I'm going to fail N1. Cos I was too greedy and decided to skip N2... And cos real life has been taking too much of a toll on me and I've not been able to find the enegy to study.

I actually had some time on my hands this week since I took sick leave from work on Thurs and Fri... But well... I was sick. And just unable to concentrate on getting those Japanese grammar into my thick head. So yeah... All the time wasted. Still not really well now... But better... At least I'm able to function... I just felt like curling up in bed all day on thurs and fri... It's amazing how some food poisoning related contipation and bloatedness can make you feel so bad... I couldn't even sleep at night... Hence the reason why I raised the white flag and went to the doctor....

Anyway.

Power of the Paradise!

Nope, I didn't watch the whole Music Day show... But I did see Arashi's Power of the Paradise performance and boy do I love that song!

So cheerful, upbeat, hopefull... And unlike Akashi, this one is fast paced. I love fast paced songs. Is it... club or something? Music genres... *shrugs*

I've updated nihongo manabu with a post about the new single. Upcoming new single at least. Please check out the post! XD

As I was researching for the post... Arashi just... Amazes me. It's the 5th bloodly hell time Sho would be covering for the olmypics... And it's the 6th time Arashi is providing the NTV Olympics theme song. Just... blows your mind doesn't it?

Alrights.

That's all from me for now! 
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I'm posting the lyrics to ONE OK ROCK's memories.

I just loving this song. Been having it solely on my replay list for a couple of days now... and you know, that tagline is just <3 <3 <3. The perfect thing to say to all the nay sayers. All the idiots. All the empty vessels. And all the narcissist with egos only about a million times bigger than their IQs.


GO ON AND FUCK YOURSELF



Title: Memories
Artist: ONE OK ROCK

Watch'n outer space I see them shine
Crazy stuff like this it blows my mind
So many times, waking up to the radio
I'm breaking out of the safety of radio
When did I stop searching for miracles?
It's bad enough when nobody helps

Memory Memory now
You are nothing but a
Memory Memory now
You're burning out
移り変わり行く世代交代
後追いはしない新世代
Memory Memory now
Go on and fuck yourself

見上げた夜空のスクリーンには
数えきれぬほどの光が
今見ているその輝きはもう
僕が生まれる遥か前 昔の
過去の姿それなのに今日も
ヤツは僕に光ってみせる!

You're just a Memory Memory now
You are nothing but a
Memory Memory now
You're burning out
移り変わり行く世代交代
後追いはしない新世代
Memory Memory now
Go on and fuck yourself

Don't wanna be a has-been
Never gonna happen
Not like you

Memory Memory now
You are nothing but a
Memory Memory now
You're burning out
移り変わり行く世代交代
後追いはしない新世代
Memory Memory now
Go on and fuck yourself

Lyrics from jpopasia. Yes they are the real lyrics. And they do scream the F word in the song. I didn't make it up.
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So, instead of finished up my vacation day 4 post, I decided to just watch VSA and ouroboros last night instead, because I couldn't concentrate on any writing.

Must say, I'm loving ouroboros so much! Toma and Shun's acting is <3! And I think it follows the manga pretty darn closely. Things are a little speeded up of course. But then again it's a drama. I think Toma is less of a blockhead and a little more cool than in the manga. Which is a good thing to me. Bring on the coolness!

I wonder... will they include the part where Shun go framed and was sent to jail? But it's quite an important part in the manga I think.... they'll probably include it. Meh. I like my heroes to be invincible. Hahaha! Plus, I think that was really careless of Tatsuya to leave the cig on the table like that! When I saw that scene in the manga I immediately knew that it was going to cause trouble. Seemed too big of a slip up to be? Then again, it'll be unrealistic if the mangaka made Tatsuya invincible huh? That would become boring too. But arghs. Very exciting manga. I want to read on! Maybe I'll try and search for the Japanese version. It might already have ended for all I know... only that the translators are having trouble with the scans and stuff... I saw they were facing a severe shortage of manpower...

Ahhhh and the drama opening song. Just what is the name of that opening song! I've been trying to find it but to no avail. Ah maybe it's an OST....

Just looking at the Japanese wiki now and. Lol. They have a Chinese coach and a medical coach. Yup. Shun spoke Chinese in episode two. Him and the old wizardy doctor. Both of them sucked at it, but meh, it's fine. Can't expect them to spend month practising one line right? At least the sentence structure and stuff is alright. And it was over before I could cringe or anything.

Oh and... I'm loving Sakura loads. I only said it like a million times in the past few days. Heard the baystorm, more complete version, and it was great. Love that powerful, a little angsty, yet very hopeful feeling. Like the 'I will prevail no matter what' spirit. That kind of feeling, reminds me of breathless and calling. Or tell me why. Hope in the darkness not so much, because hope in the darkness gives a brighter overall feel than this. To me at least. It's really hard to explain these feelings. Musically trained people would probably imagine a scenery when listening to music. My sis would start thinking of choreographies. Me? I would think about the emotions the song conveys in me. Sometimes yes I do have some kind of scenery in mind, like for sync I was thinking of a lone guy standing on a high place (say top of a skyscraper) and snow falling around him. But mostly it's just that feeling that the song arouses in me.

Maybe it's to do with how I've always been struggling to make myself stand out for the better part of my life. So much so that I completely lost all motivation and gave up later on (that, and the teacher, syllabus, exam system). But even then, I was still trying to stand out somewhere, somehow. Stand out might be a misleading way to put it. It's more like... finding my place? Like in junior college, even though I didn't study at all, I still did a Science Research Programme. Still took H3 chemistry (it's like a higher level chemistry, and we were learning uni level pharm chem and org chem stuff). I struggled to get anything out of the H3 Chem exams. Scrapped a pass in A levels. But still, the stuff that I learnt then was invaluable. All the Structure Activity Relationship stuff, the BBB aka Blood Brain Barrier... It was all very important. Despite all the injuries and bruises, I came out of school intact and alive. That's the kind of feeling it has always been for me. Like. Hello! I'm here! Despite all the odds! That's why I think those kind of songs. Despite all my peers being a lot smarter than me. I could still find a little foothold, a little place to stand in. I could still identify my strength, and leverage a hell lot out of it. And in the end I'm still alive. Again, I'm struggling here in my work place. A misplaced (?) biologist in a field of chemists and engineers. But I've found a small foot hold too. Some recognition. The kind of feeling that makes you want to punch a fist into the night sky and scream 'I made it'. Or more like 'I'm still alive'. The fallen star lives on.

I've been thinking a lot about my next move. Where should I get a PhD? I really think I should look overseas. I'd like a change. I probably need a change. Go find some place where people are motivated and passionate about their work. In Singapore? I see no such... overwhelming passion here. The PhD students don't seem really intelligent either. I don't know. I just... don't get that sort of intellectually stimulating sensation, buzz, that I felt when I was in sec sch. There, people were sprouting things from university textbooks, talking about theories that I've never heard of. Here it's like. Idk. Just dull. Plain dull. Esp here where I'm working at. Many a times I even work harder than the PhD students. And I work faster too. They say that when you're the best in some place, then you know it's time to move on, to somewhere where you'll be the bottom of the pile. And then you move up till you reach the top, and repeat. That's very true. Yes I still have loads to learn here, but a PhD here, where I'm working, that's completely out of the question. And not because of the fact that it's not the right subject matter that I'm interested in working on. A team people like to work with other A team people. Heck that's so true.

Like in sec sch there's all these talk about the 'elites' and the 'elitist schools'. It's not that I have anything about people from lousier schools, of lower intellect etc. I'm don't even have a fantastic IQ. I have friends from all walks of life - mostly people I've met through gaming. But they will forever remain just friends/acquiescences. Elitist? No! It's just reality. I have nothing in common with them, beyond the game. There's nothing we can talk about! Their idea of 'hard work' is different... a job they find tough I'll find it not mentally challenging... We read different books (if they even read any at all outside of their school related compulsory materials. Ah, loads of manga and anime I guess?). Things that are common sense to me is all but common sense to them, and vice versa. We just live in different worlds.

I just to have a coursemate in year 1 of university. She came from some polytechnic... which was fine by me. But then her.... standard of... everything really shocked me after a while. It started off with us talking about projects and reports. And she says that she and her classmates are always looking for ways to add a few words to the report, so that the paragraph would end on a new line etc, so that the report/assignment would be a little longer, to meet the page length requirement. Of course, doing things like making it double line spacing, or increasing the margin width is a given. She says she's really good at doing such things. Me? I'm pretty good at editing all my reports and assignments too. To cut down unnecessary words, so that I can fit within the word limit. Our teachers never ever give a minimum word count/page count thing for our assignments. Because who knows how many pages of essay we'll come back with? Nope. It's always an upper limit, not a lower limit. And actually, they don't give page count limits, unless it comes with details instructions on font, font size, spacing, borders etc... because otherwise people would submit essay with a freaking font size 8, in a font that packs the most number of words in a given space possible. Then there was the time she casually said after our intro to chemistry lecture (which i was so bored throughout, learnt on my own in sec sch already, learnt again in jc), that now she finally knows what the = sign between C and C stands for. C=C. Get it? Double bonds. That's freaking lower sec stuff! Even my other friend, from a different polytechnic, couldn't believe it. That poor girl. I really feel sorry for her. She dropped out after the first year. University was just too hard for her. It was the first time I'd actually seen something like that happening. People dropping out of school because they couldn't catch up. In my sch yeah there were such cases, but it was more due to stress and the whole sch environment rather than because they were not smart enough. Like my classmate who kinda gave up on sch and retook the following year. She did well. And she's smart. She writes really well, fantastic English, enormous vocab, loads of bombastic words. At the start of the uni year, that girl was asking me and the other poly girl if we were going to finish the course, graduate from uni and stuff. We were both shocked. Isn't it a given that you'll graduate after getting into uni? At least for me. For us... Different worlds.

Overall... what I feel is that... the overall positivity and 'I can do it' feeling is just not present in so many people. If there's a barrier, that instinct to find a way to cross the barrier isn't as strong. That... 'I can and I will survive no matter what shit you give me'. And the 'I will make it work no matter what'.

Ah on that last point. There once was a teacher in sec sch who commented to me and 3 other project group mates. We were talking about making something in powerpoint. And she was like 'Do you know how to do that?'. Us: 'Erm, we're not sure but we'll try'. Her: 'Ya, you all will just go and click click click and you'll be able to figure it out. That's how girls are like. Not like me so old already, I can't figure anything out.'

Yeah, pardon that Singish aka poor grammar in there. So true. Or at least till my sis came along. She's not a very tech savy person for someone having being born in the digital age (same school too). At least IMO. Like, she doesn't really know how to use excel...! And I thought I was the ignorant one about excel... always forgetting the exact syntax and having the search google. It was only much later on that I gathered my 'ability' in tech was not normal. When really it was just a normal thing to me all along. To figure out how to use programs, make things work etc. And really, a lot of the time it was google helping me out when it comes to the finer points. A lot of it came from games and random exploration too. Like, I'm sure all of you have tinkered with html before right? For your own website or blog? I did it when I played neopets and tried my hand at decorating the pet page. And forums. Made one for my secondary school CCA and had fun tinkering with the color schemes and stuff. Ok, so I don't really know CSS, but I probably can clobber together a decent looking LJ layout if I really put in the time to. But now because of my sitting position at work, I'm kinda happy with the way my LJ looks. I like it anyway. It's mature looking. Definitely not gonna put big Arashi pics in the background. No, that'll attract a ton of snark remarks from my supervisor. Not that it really matters. Nobody really cares what you do at work... but I just don't like it when he comes and make fun of me. But that attitude to make things work, by hook or by crook. It's really important. I lost it for a while in terms of school work. Though even then it manifested itself in the not so important (read: useless) areas. It's taken me a long time to find it back again. Or still taking. Bit by bit little by little.

Sigh.

Yeah. I'm a perfectionist. Like everyone else from my school. If we have to do something, and we give half a shit about that something, then it has to be perfect. I think that's something that many people don't understand. Why we get some obsessed over the smallest of things. Like many people I too hate being corrected. Because my first reaction is 'shit what did I do wrong', 'where did I go wrong?' then maybe my face gets a little hot because I'm darn embarrassed. Especially when that person turns out to be right and I go 'crap I should have checked that again before posting etc'. It's maybe more of a perfectionism then pride. Or both in equal proportions. Pride in my work. I don't know. And it makes me hesitant to post some things because I think that if someone who knows better see my work they would laugh at my poor work quality. Yes. It's embarrassing.


Arghs. This turned out to be a much longer rant than I intended. But I guess that's what happens with rants.

Rights. Enough mindless ranting for today!
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So I finally heard the song! And I must say that I like it! Well not just the song, but I’m liking the drama and manga too. In fact, when I was watching the drama I was so intent on the story that I didn’t notice Sakura had started playing, and I had to go back and listen again. But it’s nice! How should I put it? It’s definitely my type of song. Full of gusto, determination, a little hatred. It falls in the categories of songs like breathless and calling that I love so much. Ahhh can’t wait to hear the full thing now! Just a little more than a month to go…! Ahhh loving it!


So yes. I watched to drama this morning, and liked it enough to read the manga. Well I’ve been wanting to read another manga for a while… well I did read Inuyasha last month… and now I’ve read all the released chapters (in English that is. Tried to find Japanese scans because there should be more chapters out but no luck on finding a source at the first try… and decided not to continue searching but rather do something else). Interesting story. I definitely hope they would make Ikuta and Oguri more cool than in the manga though. Definitely looking forward to see how they will end things in the drama!

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Well so. I've been listening to the Taipei Chinese Version of Kansha Kangeki Ame Arashi a lot lately, thanks to the mixlr radio broadcasts. So Ei Chen posted the lyrics on FB today, and I've decided to translate it into English! Well I did a google search later and realised that (obviously) other people have translated it already, but this is mine version, and while some parts are really similar, I think I did a better job with the back part of the lyrics. Oh wells. Enough of self praise, here we go!

Kansha Kangeki Ame Arashi, Chinese Version
Warning: I am translating it from the Chinese lyrics that someone posted on LJ. I do not know if the Chinese lyrics are 'accurate', because Arashi themselves did not erm... pronounce every thing properly. I can't make out entire sentences of their singing so... but hey, they tried their best ne? ;)

Also, I'm translating line by line only, so between lines the sentence might not flow. If you find the meaning of some lines weird, that’s just the way it is in Chinese. Either the Chinese lyrics are wrong or the song writer wrote it erm.. strangely. (Venting your frustrations on yourself anyone? That was strange to me haha! The rest seems ok though.)

Overall, there are some parts that are quite similar to the Japanese lyrics, but there are some changes. :)

Enjoy!

在感覺到遙遠孤獨的時候,
Zai gan jue dao yao yuan gu du de shi hou,
When you are feeling distant and lonely,

只有你在心裡,
Zhi you ni zai xin li ♪♪
There's only you in my heart

胸中埋藏已久的怨氣,
Xiong zhong mai cang yi jiu de yuan qi
The frustration that I've buried for a long time in my chest

盡情發泄給自己。
Jin qing fa xie gei zi ji
I'll vent it on myself to my heart's content. --> Honestly I think they meant to say I'll vent it for my own sake, but they sang 給自己, literally meaning 'give myself', instead of 为自己, which means 'for myself'

在抱怨沒有人陪著的時候,
Zao bao yuan mei you ren pei zhe de shi hou
When complaining that there's no one to accompany me

你走進我心裹,
Ni zou jin wo xin li ♬
You walked into my heart

像開在路邊的小花一朵,
Xiang kai zai lu bian de xiao hua yi duo
Like a little flower that blossomed by the side of the road

溫柔的笑在風裡。
Wen rou de xiao zai feng li
Warmly smiling in the wind

是誰能夠,能夠為誰,
Shi shui neng gou, neng gou wei shui ♪
Who can do it, do it for whom

願意付出完全不在乎?
Yuan yi fu chu quan hao bu zai hu
Willing to sacrifice without caring (about the consequence)

只有最真的愛才能夠,
Zi you zui zhen de ai cai neng gou
Only the most true love can do it

撫平心裡所有痛苦!
Fu ping xin li suo you tong ku
Heal all the pain in your heart

Smile Again! 真的謝謝你!
Smile again, zhen de xie xie ni ♬
Smile again, I thank you really

Smile Again! 在哭泣聲裡!
Smile again, zai ku qi sheng li
Smile again, amid sounds of crying

來到這個世界我們會變得
Lai dao zhe ge shi jie, wo men hui bian de
Coming into this world, we will become

面對困難一定更堅強!
Mian dui kun nan yi ding geng jian qiang
Stronger when facing problems

Smile Again! 因為有你!
Smile again, yin wei you ni ♪
Smile again, because there's you

Smile Again! 所以更快樂!
Smile again, suo yi geng kuai le
Smile again, that's why we're happier

雖然沒說出口,
Sui ran mei shuo chu kou,
Although we did not say it out

初次擁有的,
chu ci yong you de
The first time we owned it

發自冢內心深處的愛是Arashi!
Fai zi nei xin shen chu de ai shi, ARASHI ♪ ♬
The love that comes from the bottom of our heart is Arashi!
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Title: The First Dance
Author: coolohoh
Word Count: ~3.4k words
Rating: PG
Warnings/Spoilers of any form: None
Song Title: Love Somebody by Maroon 5
Summary: Sho falls in love with somebody he should not be with, and the more he tried to resist, the more he fails.
A/N: Written for the Yamaficcon 2! - Jukebox Roulette competition! My very first attempt at writing a fic inspired by a song!



The first time he saw the man, it was at a nightclub. He was dancing, hips swaying to the beat. He was mesmerising, and intoxicating. All eyes turned on the man, as more and more people noticed his dance. When the music finally stopped, the man was embarrassed to realise that everyone in the club was watching him. He ducked his head as if to bow, and quickly darted out of the club while a rousing applauded filled the club. Sho was mesmerised, he tried to follow the man out to get his name, a contact number perhaps, but the throngs of crowd meant that by the time Sho got out of the club, the man was already nowhere to be seen. After wandering in the vicinity for a good hour, Sho finally gave up and went home. Sho visited the club often after that, but he never saw the man dance there again.


Years passed, and between university examinations and finding a job to make a living, the man at the nightclub was long forgotten.


Sho straightened his tie for the umpteen time that morning. Finally satisfied with his dressing, he took a deep breath before stepping out of the house. His career has been successful thus far. He didn’t exactly love the job, even though he was sure many others would die for a job like his, but it was a decent job with decent money, and he was satisfied. Sho is a manager. Manger for idols and budding idol groups. His last assignment had been a group of 5 giggly girls that went by the name of Peach Clover. Even though he was supposed to be supportive as their manager, in truth Sho had no idea how that group had become so famous as to have the honour of performing in Kouhaku, the yearly new year party TV extravaganza. Appearing in the show used to be a great honour for artists, but looking at the groups that get to appear on the show these days, Sho could only lament the downfall of the Japan entertainment industry. He had always been more of a traditional man, artists and idols should have talent, not just pretty faces. His friends always teased Sho that he only hated Peach Clover because he was gay. He was glad that they had ‘graduated' to the talent agency’s main branch in Tokyo though. Whoever he’d be managing from now on can’t be any worst than a bunch of giggling high schoolers right?


When Sho’s new charge stepped into the room, Sho raised his eyebrows in surprise. It was a he. Thus far Sho had only been managing female talents.

“Ohno Satoshi desu.”

The man introduced himself, they shook hands before sitting down for a briefing with the management. Ohno, Sho learnt, had been scouted by the agency half a year ago and had just signed the contract with the agency last week. As a new talent, he’d be appearing on several shows and radio programs hosted by other talents in the agency. Of course, he would be appearing on various news programs and music shows to promote his debut single. Having seen 6 other idols/idol groups debut, Sho was more than familiar with his job scope. He’d have to ease the sleepy looking man into the entertainment industry by giving him appropriate advice and helping him in any possible way. Sho would do his best of course, he was confident of himself. All of the talents under him had been promoted to the main branch, a 100% success rate. Even with groups that he did not personally like, like Peach Clover for instance, he had managed to secure the right programs and publicity for the group that steered them towards the path to success. Sho was never one to let personal opinions get in the way of work.


The meeting ended and the company director left, leaving Sho alone with his charge. Ohno looked at Sho blankly, waiting for further instructions.

“Erm, I’ll give you a tour of the agency and introduce you to your dance and singing instructors ok?” Sho asked.

Ohno didn’t reply, but merely gave a slight nod before standing up, waiting for Sho to take the lead.


It was most strange for Sho, to say the least. All the previous talents he’d worked with were talkative, friendly, enthusiastic… cheerful… just… more suited for the entertainment industry. He’d been with Ohno for two weeks now and how this taciturn man could survive in the cutthroat entertainment industry still eluded Sho. Sho frowned as he pondered on how he could possible promote the man and sell him to the industry. He would hate to have his successful streak broken. Sho observed the man in the studio recording, and scrutinised his every move in the dance studio as he struggled to learn the steps. He sighed as he watched Ohno forget the steps for the 23rd time that night. At the rate Ohno was going, both of them would have to camp overnight at the agency. Finally the instructor gave up and decided to end the lesson. Sho swore that he could already remember every single step without the aid of the video. It was a fairly normal, generic dance, to a normal, generic pop song that would be Ohno’s debut song. If everything went well. The big question was IF, and right now nothing seemed to be working out. Sho scratched his hair in frustration as he tried to remember who was the one who scouted Ohno. 'Just what did the scout see in him?’ Sho wondered as he drove said man home in silence.


The debut went by without a hitch. Well it was without a hitch as far as the parts where Sho could control went at least. He arranged interviews, filming, and sent Ohno to the right place at the right time. Ohno’s performance on the other hand, was a disaster. He dance and sang alright, but apart from dancing and singing he seemed to fail at everything else. He barely spoke on variety shows, and when asked about his debut single he could barely say a word to promote his own CD. And that was despite Sho having rehearsed what to say with Ohno for 4 hours the night before. It frustrated Sho to no end that he’d have to deal with the fact that Ohno might never be able to make it in the entertainment industry.


That was until Sho came to pick Ohno up from the dance studio one day. He was late, not by his own doing, but because he had a meeting with the higher management on the future of Ohno Satoshi. The said man was blissfully unaware of the dark clouds hanging over his own future however, when Sho entered the dance studio. A strange song was playing from an old handphone (Ohno’s phone as Sho immediately recognised) strewn on the floor, and Ohno was dancing across the floor, jumping, twisting and turning gracefully with little effort. It took some time before Sho finally recognised the Westlife song, for it was being played at twice the usual speed. Sho could not believe what he was seeing. Ohno was a completely different man from the one he usually saw at dance practice. He was fluid, flexible, flowing... He moved minimally, and the style if dance was completely different from the usual 'idol pop' cookie cutter dance that the choreographers created for Ohno. Those were showy, loud, and truth to be told, less of a dance but more of a set of movement. Easy to follow and more importantly, easy to sell. But Ohno's dance was graceful and flowing like water.


The music stopped and Ohno finally turned around and noticed Sho's presence.

"Ah, you're here already" Ohno said, as he turned around and noticed Sho's presence, his face flushing red with embarrassment.

"That was... fantastic! Did you come up with the dance yourself?" Sho asked.

"Erm... yeah... I made it up myself." Ohno stammered.

"Made it up? You mean choreograph? Gosh that was totally amazing! You really should have choreographed you own debut single too!" As soon as those words left Sho's mouth, he knew what he had to do for Ohno.


Sho worked harder than ever over the next few weeks. He pursuaded the management to let Ohno have more say in the song making process, he convinced them to let Ohno choreograph his own dance, he worked hard to rebrand Ohno’s image. Everything was a first, the first singer choreographer in the agency, the first time a newly debuted singer gets such huge control over the whole single making process… while the management were not convinced that stray away from the usual pop idol style would bring success, especially for a new artist with barely any foothold in the industry, Sho was sold on Ohno’s talent, so much so that he was willing to put his career at sake for Ohno.


And Sho was right. Ohno was phenomenal. His singing, while was of average standard previously, seemed much improved when he was singing the new song. Above all, the dancing blew everyone’s breath away, and everyone forgot about his poor debut performance. Suddenly Sho was having to deal with arranging a million magazine and TV show appearances, Ohno’s schedule was even more packed than Peach Clover - his most successful talent to date. And Sho no longer had to worry about Ohno’ sleepy, quiet appearance on shows because, wait for it, fans and media alike loved it! The media hailed him as the shy genius, while fans were attracted by the huge gap between Ohno’s normal and performing self. In just two dance, Ohno had the women of Japan at his feet.


The day Sho dreaded finally came, when the agency announced that Ohno should move to the main branch in Tokyo. It made Sho almost bitter to realise that he’d have to let Ohno go. Even though they still hardly talked, for Ohno was a man of few words, the times they spent together had been most memorable. It was as if there was some kind of unspoken understanding between them. There was no need for words. So it was with those sad thoughts in mind that Sho dragged himself into the regional director’s office.

“I understand that you are born in Tokyo?” The director asked. Sho nodded, unsure of what to expect.

“Well Ohno’s from Tokyo too, I think it would be nice for both of you to return to your hometown?” Sho cocked his head, waiting for the director to speak.

“As you know Ohno will be transferred to the main agency starting next month, he would like you to continue as his manager there.”


While Sho was glad to get to stay with Ohno, he was also afraid of the task ahead of him. He had spent his past ten years managing talents in Kyoto, and nearly all his contacts were from the Kyushu region. Moving to Tokyo, he would be a newbie, having to start everything from scratch all over again. While he was excited to return to his hometown, the amount of work ahead of him was terrifying. Sho immediately threw himself into research, finding out as much as he could about the various reporters and staff from the TV stations.


Sho was not the only one who worked hard. Ohno too, put in a lot of effort in his dance and singing. He was spending entire days in the studio, dancing, recording himself, watching video footage, and dancing even more. Sho found him videos of dancers with similar style to Ohno and he would spend his time trying to perform those moves and improve his skill.


Initially Sho had more time to watch Ohno dance, but he soon became too busy to spend much time with Ohno. Although in a sense they were always together, their interaction with each other actually decreased. Sho would be arranging Ohno’s schedule while Ohno is having a guest appearance on a variety show, or he would be called off to meetings with the management about Ohno’s upcoming concert. Ohno too was having trouble trying to remember lyrics, and come up with new choreography. When Sho drove Ohno around, the man would almost certainly be asleep in the backseat, drooling all over his shirt.


Their hard work paid off when his first concert held in Tokyo Dome was a sold out success. It was yet another first, no artist had started off with a first concert in Tokyo Dome before. Being a new artist, Ohno had few songs of his own and sang mostly old songs, as well as songs from other artists in the agency. But the crowd did not seem to mind, in fact they loved it when Ohno sang ‘Open Arms’ with his poor English.


The last day of the concert ended and Sho was driving Ohno back to his apartment. As they passed by Sho’s university district, Ohno suddenly jumped up and asked Sho to stop the car. Curious, he followed Ohno out as he walked to an old building by the road.

“This, was the first place I danced in public…” Ohno said, pointing to the top floor of the building. Realisation dawned upon Sho as he recognised the nightclub he used to frequent. Memories of a young man blowing the crowd away with his dance resurfaced from the dusty corner of his brain. So he was the man. The one he returned to the club every week to find, but never found. He drew a deep breath as he looked at Ohno, debating whether if he should say something. However Ohno broke the silence.

“I guess I can’t exactly go there anymore huh?” He said with a sigh as he walked back to the car. “Let’s go home.”


The days after the concert were less busy for Ohno and Sho, but Sho seemed more tired than ever everyday at work. His mind was tortured with images of Ohno dancing, hips swaying seductively… of dances that Ohno danced and did not dance. It was as if the revelation lifted a block on his mind and Sho was going crazy. He had never had a problem with falling in love with his charges before, but that was because he was gay and his charges had always been girls. But now, this was different. And yet Sho knew, he knew in his heart that such a love between manager and idol was forbidden. It was clearly stated in his contract, and his pride and professionalism would not allow him to let his emotions run wild. He could not afford to fall in love with Ohno. Their relationship would be ruined forever, Sho was sure of that.


As Sho grew more and more distracted, he realised that he had to make a decision or risk his sanity. He considered his options. It would be unlikely that the management would let him switch artists, and even if it was approved, he would still be too close to Ohno for comfort. Career wise, he hated having to leave halfway like this. Together with Ohno’s success, his own salary had been increased as well. On top of that, he was recognised as having single handedly promoted Ohno to fame, and Sho hated having to give up on that. No doubt his abrupt departure would also rise many questions. No just from his future employer, but possibly also from the media as well, should they get wind of his departure - and Sho was certain they would. That would not bode well for the new idol for sure. Half the media would blame him, while the other half would blame Ohno. And if they get wind of his contribution towards Ohno’s success, Ohno would bear the blunt of the media attacks for sure. Sho groaned as he flipped over in bed. He was stuck, between hell and high water, with no where to move. It was then he realised how much he actually loved Ohno. Unknowingly, he had already fallen head over heals for the idol. He knew every little quirk of Ohno, from the way he twitches his nose when nervous or lying, to all his favourite foods and tastes. Sho marvelled at how much he knew about Ohno. While blocking out his emotions his mind had seemingly picked out all the bits and pieces of information about the love he refused to admit, stored and filed, ready for later use. Again, he had never been so attentive to any of his other idols. Surrendering, he realised that the only thing he could do was to keep his distance form Ohno. ‘He’s a top idol, I’m just a manger’ ‘I’m doing this for his sake too, he’s just starting on his career and I can’t jeopardise it with a scandal’ and finally, ‘I don’t even know if he’s gay!’ Sho chided himself with these thoughts.


Unfortunately for Sho, he was still Ohno’s manager and the amount of distance he could put between them was limited. He tried to stop making small talk to Ohno, but in the end Ohno was so worried about his health that Sho decided to stop. He tried to ignore Ohno and forced himself to do something else during Ohno’s show recordings. But each time the crowd laughed at something, Sho’s heart ached with pain. He tried to stop himself from looking, but his brain unconsciously picked up each and every action of Ohno’s. And the more he tried to avoid Ohno, the more Ohno tried to involve him. As Ohno asked him for the 10th time that day if he was alright, Sho sighed as he realised it was almost as if Ohno had become his manager, or worst still, mother. He was trapped. Trapped in love.


Sho was driving back to the agency. Ohno had called him saying he finished his dance practice with the instructors already. It seems that Ohno was doing well in everything, now that the dance instructors knew Ohno’s style, they were better equipped to help him improve, and come up with choreography suited for the idol. Ohno was dancing, at normal speed, when Sho entered the studio. He was dancing to a tune, one of those test tunes composed for his up and coming new single. It has been a while since Sho saw Ohno dance like this. Even during the concert, Sho was in the backstage, and too busy keeping track of a thousand and one things to watch Ohno dance. And recently he has been both too busy with work and trying to distract and distance himself from Ohno to watch him dance in the studio. For a moment, Sho forgot how to breath as he stared at Ohno’s dancing form. It was too late for him to turn back and leave the studio now. His feet was glued to the floor and his eyes were taking in every movement, imprinting it into his mind like a video recorder.


Then, Ohno noticed his presence. Turning around to face his manager, Ohno danced closer and closer towards Sho. When the music finally stopped, they were a mere inches apart. As Ohno moved in closer and gave Sho a sleepy smile, Sho finally seemed to have regained his senses.

“Stop, please stop” He whispered. Ohno ignored him as he drew in closer, until their lips touched, and he gave Sho a firm kiss. Sho stumbled back, shocked.

“Ohno-san… please don’t… don’t make me… I won’t be able to stop…” Sho pleaded, his resistance crumbling.

“Its ok, I don’t want you to stop.” Ohno whispered.

“But but…” Sho stumbling, the million and one reasons that a manager should not be making out with their idol rushing through his head. Ohno seemed to have read his mind though, as he replied,

“Its ok, I don’t care. It won’t change a thing between us, we just… have to be careful not to make out in public… it doesn’t matter if they see us together anyway, you’re my manager, you are supposed to be by my side.” Ohno whispered as he hugged Sho.

Sho took a deep breath, smelling in the sweat and scent of Ohno.

“Are you sure?” He asked, voice trembling.

“Unn, I fell in love with you the first time we met.” Ohno confided. “Me too,” Sho admitted.

“Remember you said the first time you danced in public in the nightclub?” Ohno didn’t reply but merely cock his head.

“I fell in love with you there and then.” Sho said, as he moved forward to give Ohno a kiss. Ohno kissed him back, firm but gently. When they finally broke apart, it was Sho who broke the silence first.

“I want you Satoshi, I need you…” Ohno gave Sho a gentle smile. “Shall we go to my apartment tonight?”


Tonight. Sho would like Ohno take him all the way.
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Hmm the song bittersweet is constantly revolving around my head now. In spite of how i find many parts of the song a little... idk... weird? Even right from the start... it feels quite different from their usual songs? Like the way the tune goes and everything... Ok, i'm a noob at explaining since i have zero music background. But it just keeps going on autoplay in my head... and its like the only song from the album that's on my brain's autoplay list.

I like all the songs this time round though. Road to glory is nice, though it lacks the... olympic theme song feel to me. Like... it doesnt feel special/quietly motivating like akashi was, nor does it have the pumped up, do your best feel of yurase ima wo. I like that one... even before i knew it was for the winter olympics. Somehow road to glory is missing the... motivational feel to me? (EDIT: Ok, not missing, just doesnt seem as strong...? Its definitely there now that I've listened to it again, its just that there are parts that doesnt feel as grand/motivational and makes that grander parts get washed out for me... then again, maybe its just because the song hasnt really grown on me yet) Not talking about the lyrics, but the general feel of the song... because i'm not paying that much attention to the lyrics still, and my level of japanese isnt that good...

But hmm Motto ima yori is nice, very, very upbeat, nice tune, happy song... and Sync gosh. I feel in love with that song just 20 secs (or less?) into it. I was like. Hey, this sounds like my type of song. And sure enough, the rest of the song was even nicer than the intro. It feels very... arghs. I cant describe it. But the tension and the feeling of the song just resonates with me. Love the lyrics too... 'I believe in my world again' Gosh that sounds so nice. Its like the kind of song you'd like to listen to when you standing at the rooftop and looking into the night sky, clenching your fists in triumph (but silently, with ur fists resting by your side) at your success of overcoming whatever, or getting to wherever you want after trying so hard. Like quiet, but powerful. That kind of feeling... did that even make sense haha? Like yarukizero mentioned, i'd like to have a PV for this song... but then again, I can imagine them as I'd like the PV to be like in my head, and that works just as well for me. Since it's the PV i created in my head, it'll be the 'perfect' PV yeah? :P

But yeah, its not everytime that i like every single song in the single. Still love sync the most! Right, that's all for now!
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Its playing over and over in my head now, though I've not even listened to it that many times... just like a few times when they performed it on Heyx3, then like maybe 3 times last night after i DLed the single, and then once when watching the PV and once when watching the heyx3 perf once more. I prefer their live perf much, much more than the PV. Sorry, but I don't... get the PV at all. Its all too melancholy and sad for the song. Like when they are lip syncing in the PV. It just feels sooooo, so bad. It so obvious that they are lip syncing, like the sound and video doesnt match. Like the kind of creepy feeling I get when say the video and sound track is out of sync, or when i'm watching something that's dubbed over. Something that I've never had a problem with for their previous PVs... Its like, they are standing there feeling so sad but you hear this lovely upbeat tune coming out... mismatch plus plus for me. There was this little bit of sakuraibajun laughing happily moments but... like... where's leader and nino? both still alone... i kept waiting for all five to come together but no... ok, some ohmiya maybe? nope, none of that either. If not for the five of them standing together you'd think they filmed the PV with O and N being filmed on some other day (or maybe they did and CGed it something...). And nope, no dance and all... I think that's because the PV was filmed BEFORE Ohno made the dance. I mean hey, that genius of a choreographer came to work on what... the 4th of Jan. And he took all of 2 days (or maybe 3, he wasn't that specific on AD) to come up with the dance, and then teach it to the members, and then they performed it live on the 13th. I'm pretty sure they took the PV way before that... Because otherwise it'll never be in time for the CD production and all. And they have to get like a million CDs ready, packed, and shipped before the 12th so that those who pre-ordered it will get it early (at least, those who live in Japan will get it early?).

Granted, they have spent their whole lives singing and dancing. But it still amazes me. How Ohno can choreograph a dance so fast, and how Arashi can learn it so fast. Even Ohno himself was surprised at how fast the members learnt when he was teaching them...This talent that I'll never have. Maybe Ohno will be amazed at how I crank out my school reports, essays and thesis overnight, or over the weekend... but we've all done that before right? Coming up with a dance in two days...? Now that's a genius. I heard from my sis that he spent his 20min train ride with his eyes closed and thinking about his solo song, and ended the train ride smiling because he was done coming up with the dance for his solo Rain. I've never read anything about that anywhere on the net, no idea if he said it in some mag interview, or on some tv show/radio, or if he said it at all/if its true... but man, that guy is amazing. How he mentioned in a magazine interview that he'll dance at 2x the speed of the song, so during concerts it's a breeze. GOSH. Its like the athletes who'd train with weights and stuff... I was like 'so this kind of stuff can be done for dancing too huh?'. I'd never have imagined. I wonder if he still does it now. Dancing at 2x the speed I mean. But its a good reminder to myself that they've put in loads of hard work to get to where they are now... Watching them on TV or in concerts its easy to forget about all the hard work behind the scenes, or even all the hard work they've put in years ago that allowed them to hone their skills to what they have now.

Hmm... they have yet to perform bittersweet elsewhere right? Am definitely looking forward to another performance of it... looking forward to seeing more of Ohno's choreography too. Remember on the heyx3 show when they asked Arashi how they will see themselves in the future... and Jun i think said that since Ohno's the oldest, they will keep dancing till Ohno can't dance anymore... like for another 10 years. And of course our leader immediately complains about having to dance for another 10 long years. But looking at him dance. Like this time round his Hit the floor solo is even more energetic and all (only saw from all the puny little news clips of course)... I want him to keep dancing forever >< 10 ears and beyond...

They are amazing arent they? 15 years into their debut and they are still growing. 15 years and the first single A-side song choreographed by Ohno. 15 years in Arashi and 20 years in the industry and its since single choreography debut. This kind of things really makes me wonder how long Arashi will continue to rule the Jpop scene. Sure, they are losing ground out to AKB. But look at akb - their members are always changing, and there's just soooo many of them. And you really should not forget that AKB was formed as a... theatre/musical group. (ok, i don't like akb that much, but i don't hate them either.) But with Arashi, its just the 5 and the FIVE only. Never more, never less, never changing. By just that Arashi has won already. And looking at their crazy momentum... it makes it really hard to imagine when will they finally... slow down. Critics/haters will say they have slowed down already... but... really? They have hosted kouhaku for the fourth year running. They did 24 hour TV two years in a row. Sho is once again the reporter for the Sochi olympics and ONCE AGAIN the were song to sing the olympic theme song for Japan. They had three major concerts/events last year - waku waku, Arafest and LOVE tour. Their activities are only increasing, despite the ending of HnA. And so much so for the ending of one Arashi show... sure, they have not had a new show with all five of them in it, but i think its because they are now way, way too busy and their schedule can't accommodate any more group regular shows. Aiba, Sho and Nino all have their own solo programs now... So what's the ending of HnA to say they Arashi is losing popularity, as many of those critics were so quick to claim when HnA's end was announced? The show might have ended but the group goes on, even stronger than ever. They've even made the global no. 1 placing several times... which i think is unimaginable considering how little their popularity is in the face of global super stars like lady gaga. Its like. Arashi is popular, but only in Japan. In the rest of the world they are popular, but... at least where I am it feels like we arashi fans are a hidden, rare lot. Everyone else, esp kpop stars are more popular/well known. Even akb is more well known :(.

Great. I'm getting really, really off track here. I just wish to see them continue growing from now on... even though I'll have to be patient and wait and see since I'm now watching them 'in real time' now, as opposed to watching their first ten years of growth through their old tv shows etc, since i only became a fan in their ~11th year. Can wait for what exciting stuff this year, their 15th year anniversary will bring. Its here and its here crazily fast. I still remember joining the 5x15 forums when it first started last time and that was like... way ahead of their 15th year anni... like a whole year and a half ahead? And suddenly 2014 is upon us. Scary how time flies. And it'll only go by faster as we age because our internal clock slows down. Crazy. But yeah, Ohno choreographing their first single kind of sets the bar pretty high for the rest of the year... at least for me.

Only caught up with watching two episodes of AnS, still behind on the VSA and way behind on nino-san. Ah... there was a live (or not?) perf on yesterday's AnS right? I guess it'll have to have bittersweet in it... ah... if only I downloaded it and watched it last night... but i kinda just sat there, played my phone a little, and then headed off to bed. Oh wells. Meeting up with my former FYP student and a friend from my old work place for dinner tonight. Tried to convince my dad to let me go on my own but to no avail once more. Convinced my mum, but couldn't convince my dad sigh. I just hate it. I've not been out on my own at all since the day i fell down. This sucks... ><
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So... the we can make it in chinese... sung by Singaporean Shi Xin Hui (石欣卉) and the title is 命中注定 (meaning fated in life). So she's the one who also sang From Taipei to Beijing, the From Paris to Berlin remake...

I obviously don't watch much Singapore TV shows so i don't even know that such a person appeared on some singing contest here...

I guess i'll try and find and DL both songs, even though i love the originals better. Its funny how listening to the remakes make me love the original so much more. We can make it aint on my list of favourites (I'd place it in the middle of the like or hate ranking), but i just can't help but keep singing it after listening to her remake. Haha. Its very hilarious when you listen to the song, see that the meaning is completely changed (it’s a love song through and through)... you remember the original song's lyrics its hard not to sing along (at least, in my head) to the chinese lyrics when 1) you understand chinese, and 2) you're listening to it. Its hard to concentrate on the japanese lyrics when you don't know it very well in the first place :P Only after i stop then i can 'sing' arashi's version in my head. Yeah, maybe its just cos i get easily distracted like this when it comes to music... or i just plain suck :P

I think this is probably the same mysterious song my sis and my friend heard at the shopping center years ago...

I'll go find the files and DL it on my comp... can make for some fun listening occasionally i guess... XD If you're interested to listen shot me a pm or something? No sho rap in the song of course. Because she is not sho XD

Edit: Ah, its on youtube...

The style of the song is totally different... of course...
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Ok, so popcorn is out and I've just DLed it...

I absolutely hate it when LJ freezes up and refuse to load. Just a few seconds ago I could load my friends page just fine but... After hitting the DL link and than the comment on post button, the page freezes up! Hello dear Lj! I just wanna leave a thank you comment so can you pleeease load the page for me? I get really frustrated with Lj at times cos of this.

Also, the lengthy but great ninja series by bobblemon has finally come to an end. Such a great story! In terms of fanfics my fav is yarukizero's... And now I've found a 1st runner up!

And yes, the popcorn. Still haven listened to anything yet cos I was in a rush to restart my comp to xp. Yup been like 3 weeks since I last mapled. This time they finally reopened Cygnus and my guild is having a run and I'm supposed to report in 20 mins... Meh no good! I have to patch my maple, transfer my equipment, move my character and do the prequest :x. Planned to restart my comp an hour earlier but with the last two chaps of the ninja story out I just can't resist... Yes patching maple on my comp now and writing this on my phone so I apologize for not writing out all the names properly...

Meh gonna try and load all the stuff to iTunes on xp so I can listen to popcorn later or something. The trouble of using bootcamp ><. But no choice, my games only run on windows. Ideally I'd have another computer just for games... But of cos that'll be in y fantasy. Which reminds me I. Have. To. Find. A. Job. Before y parents get so pissed and throw me out of the house or something :c. I've slacked on for far too long I'd admit. Time to make a move before I become jobless forever eh? But first... Maple :p
Hey it's been weeks since I last mapled or played trickster ok?!
Oh great. Xp outta space. Gotta run and solve the problem. Ciao!

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na na na x n

lol...

that stupid aiba's hello goodbye is STUCK in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*hears protest from aiba fans*

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nah. just kidding. aiba is cute, innocent and a little baka at times and i love him. and i love the song loads too... which is why i had it as the only song on replay for my whole to and fro trip today and now the song is COMPLETELY STUCK in my head. esp the nanana parttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!

went botanic gardens with my friend today... was great fun but imma really tired now... and i saw on twitter that today's hna was super funny? look forward to watching is! have last weeks hna to watch too kekeke... and AnShi... i kinda... saved them up to watch later :P

okays... that's all for now!

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